Two Brave Samurai~

Whaddup~
I haven't written a personal post in a little while, huh. Guess it's about time I did, seeing as I have nothing else to do. Actually, I never have anything else to do. But you knew that already.

Actually, some things have happened since my last post. Good, bad, neutral. But I don't really want to talk about the bad. Because it's too depressing. Seriously, Called≠Plan disbanding? That's just not okay. And I'm not okay with it. So I'm afraid I can't talk about it right now. I just can't.
Lalala anyway, what happened that was good, then? Well, I guess my 18th birthday is pretty good, right! Yeah well sort of. Because my birthday fell on a Sunday this year, I had to go to work. Work on my 18th birthday. Such fun. I didn't actually mind too much, because I didn't really want to do anything in particular for my birthday, so at least I got to do something. I'm just not really fussed about making a big deal of birthdays, you know. And it turned out alright, anyway, because in the evening I went out with my family to this amazing little Japanese restaurant called Kura. When we made the reservation, my parents told them it was my birthday, so two of the waiters (one of which was realllly cute) came and sang me happy birthday. It was so adorable. And then they gave me green tea ice cream with a little birthday candle in it, to which my mum added more candles that she bought with her. It was fun! Actually, we'd been to this restaurant before, and I'd always planned to have my first taste of sake there on my 18th birthday. Me and my friend thought that it would be appropriate for us to try the one called 'Two Brave Samurai', but 'Young Beautiful Boy' was also a contender. Seriously they had the most hilarious names for their sake. But, when we got there we both realized that we had forgotten our IDs. So we stuck with cola. It wasn't too disappointing though, because I don't really care for alcohol anyway, and the cola was much cheaper. It was a nice night, with good food and good company! Then when we got home I watched Howl's Moving Castle, which in case you weren't aware, is my favourite movie. Of all time. Ever. In the history of forever. So yeah, it was a good end to the day. I'm no legally an adult LOL WHAT I'M GOING TO BE IMMATURE FOREVER.

We ordered some sashimi for starters. I didn't actually take any other photos of our food, because we were all really hungry and just wanted to eat. Sorry not sorry.

Birthday ice cream! It was really nice of them to do that~

Another good thing that happened was the day before my birthday, when me and my friend went to get our nails done! I've wanted to have my nails done Japanese style for a long time, but I'd never been able to find anywhere here that does that kind of nail art. But then one day I stumbled across a sign for a little nail place in Auckland city called S's Nail, which is owned by a lovely Japanese lady called Satomi. So, I went and picked up a business flyer, and a couple of weeks before my birthday, I made an appointment. I actually emailed her some pictures of styles that I liked first, asking if she could do something similar. She replied saying she could, and gave me estimates of how much each design would cost. And I was pleasantly surprised, as her prices are extremely reasonable! So we turned up for our appointments, mine being first at 1 pm, and my friend at 2.30 pm. Our appointments went a little over time, though, so we were there until about 4.30. It's understandable though, it was a lot of work for one person. But it was so fun, and she was so nice that it didn't feel like that long at all. I'm really happy with how they came out, and I can't wait to go back to her for a new style in about a months time~ 

These are my nails, the photo is from her Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/ssnailgelnail?ref=ts&fref=ts). The little bows/hearts and things are actually 3D art, made out of acrylic on top of the base gel, and then covered by clear gel. I have so many layers of paint/gel on my nails, I lost count. It was about $135 NZD for mine, which I though was pretty good, considering it took her about 2 hours. 

And of course, there's the compulsory mirror photo. I haven't really felt like wearing wigs lately, so that's my real hair, curled. I quite like it.

I guess I'd better wrap up this post soon, so the last good thing I'll talk about is the music I've recieved recently~ 

Golden Bomber's The Past Masters Vol. 1 (Types A+B) These albums were so cheap, and I couldn't decided which type I wanted the most, so I just went for both types. And I regret nothing. 

Also with this order was ALSDEAD's Separator, which I've already posted about (sort of). And you all know how much I fucking LOVE this band and this album. 

Then it was MEJIBRAY's mini MESSIAH.bat and LOST ASH's THE REAL. As for MESSIAH.bat, it's really good, and I'm really digging it right now. But I can't help that feel that Silvers.exe was better. But that's just my opinion. I've also already posted about THE REAL, so you should know already that I also fucking LOVE this album, this band is growing on me more and more every day. 

And lastly, Kameleo's Now! I adore Kameleo, these guys are really amazing. So fun and so unique. They're really fun to watch. And they're all such cool guys. The music is generally very positive and upbeat, but this album also showcases their softer, more sentimental side, in a way. And they manage to touch on some very serious issues without making it too in-your-face serious, which is admirable. I urge you to give them a go, really.

Actually, there is one more good thing that's happened. After five years of waiting, I finally got my lip pierced! It's a labret piercing, i.e. the one in the middle of the bottom lip. Am I visual kei yet?

The day after my 18th birthday I went and got it done. Here, you have to be 16 with parental permission, or 18 to get piercings other than nose/ears/belly button. My parents have always been against me getting it done, so I waited until I was 18, out of respect for them. But I talked it through with them, and explained that when I got it done, it wasn't an act of rebellion or out of disrespect for them, it was just something I've wanted for a long time and I was finally able to get it. They still don't agree with it, but they at least understood my position. Which is nice, because I really do respect my parents, and I don't want to make them unhappy. I don't have any photos with it yet, but hopefully next time!

Until then, children~

Now Playing - FLASH BACK by ALSDEAD

Boiling Point

I'm feeling kind of down about myself at the moment. I feel like I'm always going to be this plain, boring nobody. Everyone on the internet is so good at fashion and then I'm just here like umm I have this sweater which is kind of cool and sometimes my eyeliner turns out semi-okay. Or they're really great at crafting and making things, or art or music. Or all of the above. Ahh, I dunno. I'm being an idiot. It's probably because I was blog-hoping on Tumblr, and there are so many beautiful, fashionable and creative people on there. I just wish that I could be one of them. I wish that there was something about me that was special. But I came to accept a long time ago now that I'm average, and that I'll probably just be average for the rest of my life. Honestly, my fashion choices aren't entirely my own. I just copy everyone else's ideas, follow whatever the people who I think are cool are doing, and even then I don't do a very good job of it and end up looking like a twat. It's not that I don't actually want to wear the things that such people do, because I honestly do and I would love to be able to pull it off, but I just don't have the means. That, or my outfits are half-baked. They always end up being just really average, even though I try really hard to make them nice. But in the end, it's not entirely my own personal style. I don't like that. I want to be able to come up with things that are unique, things that are special to me. I try, but like I said, I don't have the means. I can't just go and buy whatever I want, and I definitely can't make it myself. Don't get me wrong, I love my clothes and I love to wear them, but still... I can't seem to shake this feeling. I seem to like to tell myself that eventually, if I buy a whole bunch of clothes and things that are cool, then I'll be fine. I don't have a job, and finding a part-time job as a teenager in my country isn't exactly easy, and I'm really lousy at anything to do with crafts. I hate that I have to mooch off my parents for everything, but I don't have any other option. I've applied for jobs before, yes, but I never got any of them. I recently sent in an application to a store called The Warehouse, which is essentially my country's equivalent of Walmart. That's how desperate I'm getting. I hate the feeling that I haven't truly earned anything I own, that it was my parents hard work that put all my clothes in my closet. And to be honest, writing all this doesn't help at all. It just makes me feel even more shit. I'm such a lousy person. All I ever do is complain. There are so many people who have it much worse than me, yet I'm daring to sit here and whine about pointless shit. So what if I don't always like myself. It's probably just teenage insecurities. I'm happy enough, for the most part, right? I have a great life, with wonderful family and a nice home and I'm getting a good education. So why the fuck do I think it's ok to not like myself? It's not even that big of a deal. When you get right down to it, all it is, is me looking in the mirror and going, wow you're ugly inside and out huh you try so hard to be cool but none of your ideas are your own you hypocrite, and walking away. Most of the time, I just ignore the feeling, I accept it, and I move on. That's what irritates me the most. I'm so lucky, yet I still find something to be unhappy like this about, for no good reason. I feel like such a pathetic douchebag right now. I feel so crap, I wasn't even going to post this, but then I remembered... Hey, who gives a fuck, it's not like anyone reads your shit anyway.

I'm sorry. Really. That escalated quickly. I didn't intend for it to end up quite so... well, you know. But, I've always made a point my policy when it comes to blogging - backspace doesn't exist unless for grammatical errors. Whatever I type, stays. Because it's my blog. My feelings. My rants, and my rambles. It's just really late where I live right now, and I've been running on six hours of sleep for the past eighteen hours. I tend to get more angry with myself when I get tired. I'm not usually like this. I mean, I've always been a very self conscious person, but I'm actually pretty ok with it usually. It's just times like this when my brain stops working the way it should. But I guess, if I was able to spill my guts and write that much, then I really needed to write it down. It's like, I had been keeping all these thoughts shut away. I didn't want to acknowledge them, I didn't want to accept them. Like I said, feeling this way makes me feel bad. I'm so grateful for everything in my life, and so I feel like I don't deserve to be upset about something as small as my fashion choices or appearance. That's all. So I try to push the feelings away. I suppose that's not the most healthy thing to do though. Because it leads to these weird little outbursts of anger. That's what a blog is supposed to be for right? Getting all your feelings down. Lifting weight of peoples' shoulders. So from now on, I'm not going to keep my feelings shut away inside until I reach my boiling point. I'm going to do my best to let it out in a calm and constructive way, through this blog. My blog. And actually, I do feel a lot better now. I know the feelings will come back every now and again, they always do, but I'm going to try and handle them better.

Ugh, another thing I don't like about these weird outbursts is that I'm not able to say properly what it is I want to say. I don't think before I type, I just type whatever. Sometimes, it's okay, but in some cases I feel that what I've written can be easily misunderstood or misinterpreted. But then, I can't actually think of how else to say it. So I'll leave it. And it doesn't flow very well at all! Usually I try to give my posts a nice flow, from one point to the next. Boooo.

Ahh, I feel like my usual self now, so I'm thankful. Glad I was able to get this off my chest. But I'm also feeling really fucking tired. So it think it's about time I got to bed. I know I said in my last post that my next post would be in a couple of days, but I clearly needed to get this off my chest now. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to sleep. So, if you're interested, please still expect a more normal post from me in a couple of days!

I'm listening to my sleepy/calm music playlist right now huhuhu~

NP - Hirogaru Sekai by Golden Bomber 

Why Can't I Hold All These Limes?

BECAUSE YOU RACK DICSIPRIN. //irrelevant title is irrelevant~

I am such a fucking loser. I already knew I was. But I only just realized the extreme extent to which this is true. It kind of sucks, I'm probably never going to find like-minded friends because of my total loser-ness and I'll always feel different and lonely, but hey. I can't change the way I think about things. And I certainly will not change just to fit in. So I guess I'll have to live with it. I have so far...
Just so you know, this is partly due to my views on partying/drinking/smoking/drugs. I have this huge distaste for all of them. As a seventeen year old girl, I'm proud to say that I've never done any of it. And I don't want to. I don't see the need, I don't see the appeal. If you want to go on a buzz, drink a fucking energy drink. Most people would think that when I get older, then I'll want to go out partying and drinking. But honestly, I really don't think I will. I just hate the idea so much now, I can't imagine ever wanting to do it. It honestly holds no interest for me. At all. But whatever... I've never found anyone who has the same values and attitudes towards this subject as I do, so I've accepted the fact that I probably never will. Literally, forever alone.

So lately I've been thinking, I really would like to buy a lolita dress/one-piece. I just have one reservation. I don't dress in lolita, I don't own a single piece of lolita clothing. I really do love the fashion, it just doesn't always suit my personal fashion and/or budget. All I want is one, maybe two pieces of lolita. Nothing too extravagant, just something simple and cute. I wouldn't wear it in the traditional lolita style, I'd want to mix and match it with my punkier items of clothing. Now, I that there are people who already do this, and it looks awesome. But then there are people, usually the everday/lifestyle lolitas, that CAN get a little bitchy about this use of lolita. I say can, because I know not every one of them will be like this, but I really can't be bothered dealing with the ones who are like that. Is it really harming anyone if you have one lolita dress and wear it in your own way? Do we have to be lifestyle lolitas in order to wear one dress that we like? Do there have to be rules when it comes to fashion, your own personal style? I don't think so. So I will eventually buy a lolita dress, once I find a cute one within my budget. And I will wear it my way.  And idgaf what any elitist lifestyle lolita says.

Lately, a whole bunch of new visual/jrock bands have been springing up. And I absolutely love it! It's so cool to find brand new bands to support, and most of them have quite fresh looks. The only downside is that sometimes it takes a little while between the first introduction of the band, until we are able to hear some of their music. So I'm just sitting here hoping that the music of these new bands is as fresh as their looks. One new band in particular that I think looks promising is Neverland. Seriously, just their name is so cool! And their first look is pretty fucking amazing. I'm so amped to hear their music! Bring it on! I'm so grateful to the Jrock UK Updater (aka edohsama.blogspot.com) and all it's wonderful mods for informing us fans of these new bands, and for keeping us up to date on all the old favourites! -bows-

Well, today's post has been a bit of a mishmash. I've run run out of energy, and things to say. I'll round up here, so good night/good morning/good day/whatever it is wherever you are~!

NP - Let's Go KY by Golden Bomber

We Are Rock People~!

Fuck. I miss Jun's Niconico weekly live streams. I miss chatting with all the WARPS, fangirling and squealing over collarbones and thighs, Beardy, his occasional tipsy-like behaviour, the Happy Birthday song in adorable engrish, the always asking for a kiss but not getting it (except a couple of times, ohmygod). Having something to look forward to every week, something that could get me through the week. Knowing that no matter how bad a week it had been, Jun and all the WARPS would be there. I guess I miss the the general feeling of the streams. The feeling that I actually belong somewhere. The feeling of being part of one big, awesome, crazy family. Seriously, the Spiv States/Jun fandom is the only one that I've ever felt comfortable in, or like I am actually a part of. Ugh. Now I'm really sad. How do I deal~!

Ok, so the other day in class, someone who I thought was supposed to be something of a friend of mine, said something that struck a nerve with me. Long story short, he essentially said, straight to my face, that visual kei is 'disgusting', and he doesn't understand why guys would willingly make themselves look more feminine and the fact that they do look like girls is disgusting. All I was doing was looking at a photo that Jun (Utahiroba, of Golden Bomber), had posted in a blog entry. That's all. I wasn't harming anyone, I wasn't talking to him, just minding my own business.I didn't ask for his opinion. It was weird, because usually he just jokes about my 'men in skirts', but I don't mind that so much, because I know he's just kidding around and isn't trying to be mean.
I was shocked. I didn't even know what to say, it was so random and out of the blue. I was so fucking upset and angry that I actually had to get up and leave the room. I don't know why, but I felt like I was going to burst into tears, like it was my mother that he was insulting. It really, really hurt. I wanted to punch him in face. And even though it was quite clear that what he said hurt me, he hasn't apologised. No, I don't want him to apologise for having his own opinion, but generally, when you hurt someone, you should apologise for hurting them. He knows that my music and bands are practically my whole life, and I just don't get why he had to say something so rude about it. Honestly, he didn't have to fucking say anything at all. I didn't ask him what he thought, I didn't ask him to look. He could have just kept his mouth shut. I haven't talked to him since then, and honestly, I don't care if I never talk to him again. He really wasn't even that good of a friend.

What makes it worse, was that recently I've been feeling quite lonely. I don't really have anyone else who has the same musical interests as me. Sometimes I just want to fangirl the fuck out, but with another fangirl, not by myself all the time. I don't know anyone else other than my homestay who likes visual kei. At school I feel so alone, even when I have people around me. I can't talk to any of my 'friends' about my music, and if/when I do, I feel like I shouldn't because they don't care. It's really hard to be a visual fan, huh... Especially when you're an internet nobody and you don't even have online friends to fangirl with. I just feel... so... ughh.

Oh wahhh, this post was really depressing, huh! I'm sorry! I didn't mean for it to be.
Oh, funny story! Yesterday, I was sitting in Geography class doing my work (I sit up the front), and I happened to overhear two guys who sit at the back of my class talking. Their conversation, from where I heard it, went something like this:
Guy 1 - "Ouch!"
Guy 2- "I didn't even go that hard!"
Guy 1 - "But it hurt!"
Pause
Guy 1 - "Stop it, it feels weird!"

My jaw literally dropped, as did my pencil. My brain automatically went HOLYSHIT YAOI SENSITIVE UKE WTF AM I THINKING UGH. I turned around, and they were actually just punching each other on the arms, but still. I have issues man. Seriously, though, what was I supposed to think!
Speaking of yaoi, I think I may have jumped the gun a bit with it. I mean, after reading those volumes of yaoi a few weeks ago, I haven't actually read any more. I haven't felt the overwhelming desire to, like I thought I would. I'm certainly not obsessed. Maybe it was just a one day thing. Is it possible to be a light yaoi reader, like, read a volume or two occasionally? I guess I'll find out. I have recently started shipping Yuuto and Syu from Called≠Plan, though. So hard. XD


Sorry for the long post today. I have a lot on my mind. I'll finish here as I am, in just a few minutes, going over to CDJapan to purchase SID's new album M&W [Type A]. I've been listening to it all week, seriously. It's amazing, so well arranged and beautiful and lovely and ahhh. I'm just trying to decide if I should pre-order AYABIE's new album in the same order... It's a lot of money, but I don't want to miss out on it. I love AYABIE. And it would mean that I would have to wait longer for SID's album to arrive here. Oh well, ftp, I'm doing it! Ftp, really? Wow, I'm lame.


NP - Konagona by SID

I Forgot How To Breathe~

No, really. I'm not being stupid and soppy and teenagerish. I actually have a breathing pattern disorder. It's called hyperventilation syndrome. Mine isn't quite as bad as it sounds. I don't do the hyperventilating, but that's because my case is only mild at the moment. I'm a chronic mouth breather, so that causes me to yawn and sigh all the time, and often feel like I'm hungry and gasping for air. I've just recently started seeing a specialist, so hopefully I will re-learn how to nose breathe. It feels really unnatural and uncomfortable at the moment, but apparently it can take two to three months to be comfortable with nose breathing again. But I'd rather spend three months trying to fix it than live with the feeling that I'm gonna die if I don't get enough air. I know I won't, but that's just how it feels, so I always find my self trying to breathe in through my mouth as deeply as possible. Not how you're supposed to do it. Also, this disorder isn't weird, it's actually pretty common, and can happen to people of any age. If you think you're having issues with breathing, get it checked out sooner rather than later mmkay~?

On Saturday I went to see a one hour screening of Adventure Time at the cinema! It cost $10, and we were SUPPOSED to get free Finn hats, but the dumbass organizers didn't order enough hats, so only the people under ten years old got one. Me and my friends, and numerous other viewers, were like, bitch please. There were only about ten kids under 10. The rest were teenagers, my age. Because let's be honest, Adventure Time is way more suited towards teenagers, or at least people over the age of ten. So we were all pretty mad about that (and we wrote some strongly worded complaints to the movie theatre when we got home), but seeing Adventure Time on a big screen was actually pretty awesome. I love Adventure Time, so I was just really happy and excited, and it was a fun experience. I wouldn't do it again for $10 though... maybe for $5.

So I've recently found some online stores that sell fake nails that I really love. I'm thinking about buying some soon, because I still have birthday money from my relatives. I think I'm going to buy a Tamiya t-shirt first though, the tell-tale sign of a Golden Bomber fan~ Could also be two-tone hair, face paint and Gachapin and Mukku things. XD

Threeeee moreeeee daaaaaays! And then a two week break. I know it doesn't sound like much, but still. I don't have to deal with people I don't like everyday. I can stay in my pajamas all day. I can catch up on some anime, and read the pile of manga I have waiting for me beside my bed. Which, in case you are curious, includes Fairy Cube, Loveless, Ouran High School Host Club, Shugo Chara!, Sand Chronicles, and others. I've already read all of Ouran, but it is my second favourite series ever, so I'm re-reading it for the millionth time. I actually only own four physical copies of it though. Slowly collecting them! It's such a wonderful series, so balanced and lovely. Tamaki is of course my favourite, but Hikaru is very, VERY close. I'm going to admit this now, I was never as drawn to Kyoya as many people seem to be. Mori was my favourite for a chapter or two. And for my first watching of the anime (yes, I watched the anime first), I adored Honey. But I've actually come to really dislike Honey. I can't be bothered explaining it much further than that right now, though. I've also read Shugo Chara! before, it's also a favourite, but I'm yet to watch the anime. I actually think I've written about Shugo Chara! in this blog before... Hey, maybe I'll spend my break watching the anime! As for Loveless, I'm actually up to volume 9, but I haven't been able to find it anywhere, so I'm re-reading what I've read so far. I'll probably watch the anime for that in the break too. But I really want to read on! It's so good where I've come to a stop, and the suspense is killing me! Must find! I don't really like reading manga online, I prefer to hold the actual book in my hand. Of course, I have to read a lot online, but I always check the library first. It's usually pretty good, my library.

Speaking of the library, I've requested Black Butler volume 9, but at the moment I'm number 28 on the hold list. I'm not going to get it for at least a month. Gahh, so much suspense~ =_=

Damn, now I'm in one of those moods where I really want to talk about anime and manga! But I don't have time right now. I know, I'm nowhere near close to an expert, and I guess in comparison to some others I don't read/watch that many series, but I still love it and love to talk about it none-the-less. Maybe one day I'll do a post purely dedicated to my anime and manga!

Wow, long post today. Cool beans. :3

NP - Pandora by Mix Speaker's,Inc.

Tonight Tonight

Listening to Golden Bomber always puts me in a good mood. So does watching videos of them on YouTube. They're all so fucking weird. Of course, Kenji is probably the weirdest, followed closely by Kirisho. Man, they're a great bunch. <3

I really, really hate not having a job. Or I just hate not having money. It seems like lately it's been release after new release, for so many bands that I love. New albums from Piko, Zuck, ACE, PIECE, Paradeis, BugLug. Singles from GALEYD, GOTCHAROCKA, Vistlip, SID, Mix Speaker's,Inc., and again BugLug. Live DVDs from SuG and LM.C, plus CDJapan has more of Golden Bombers Golden Best Type B, which I really wanted. I'm so upset, because I know that there is no way I'm going to be able to buy all of them. I'm only going to be able to get like, two or three, so I have to choose. I don't wanna chooooose! I can't do eeeht. Also, I don't just want music. I'm desperately in need of a wardrobe update. And I have a stunning lack of accessories and shit. Some of the stores that I want this stuff from don't ship internationally, so I'd have to pay the special request fee on CDJapan. On top of all that, whatever I buy, there is going to be a shipping charge, which is always expensive. Holy shit. Excuse me while I go drown my sorrows in ice cream.

I really love pineapple. But only in a can. Is that weird? I guess so.

It's getting really cold where I live, because it's almost winter. June-August are the wintery months here, and I'm really looking forward to it. I hate summer, I hate the sun. I don't have any summer style clothes either, all my stuff is more suited to winter weather. WHOA, step back! Did you see that alliteration? Completely unintentional, I swear. Anyway, winter. I'm excited. Bring on the rain.

Lalala, sorry. This was a boring one. I just felt like having a vent/cry about how I want to buy all the things but at the moments I can't buy any of the things. Mla. ;___;

NP - Ai Nante Iraneiyo by Golden Bomber 

Visual Kei and Pokemon are Japanese traditions!

Huh. Well. It's been a whole year. What's up, blogface?
I think, it would be fair to say, that I am entirely shit at continuing with a blog. Or sticking at anything, for that matter. I always have been. Like, whenever I tried to keep a diary as a kid, because and all my friends said they did, I would always give up after just a few days. Well, what're you gonna do. This has been something of my favourite expression lately. I should find a more motivational one, I think...

So! A whole year. That's a hell of a long time. And I sure have changed. At least, I think I have. What's new with me? What has happened in my life in this past year? I think I'll start with the thing that I think is most important to me. I fell in love with Visual Kei. It started almost exactly a year ago, when I was herp-derping around on the internet. I already liked a few J-Rock artists, but I kept seeing these terms "visual" and "oshare" popping up. So, me being curious George, I looked them up. The first image that I clicked on was a picture of Takeru of SuG. It was a photo from their single 小悪魔Sparkling (Koakuma Sparkling). I don't want to sound like a cliche douchebag here, but it legitimately was love at first sight. I had to know more. I looked into SuG first, completely adored the music, and well, the rest goes from there. SuG are still one of my favourite bands. They will always hold a special place for me. However, about six months ago, I found my absolute favourite band, bias, and obsession. LM.C, with their song PUNKY ❤ HEART, which is still one of my absolute favourites of theirs. I'm not even going to try to put into words how much they mean to me. Because I honestly can't. And I know, it hasn't even been that long, and I do feel like a bit of a noob fan sometimes, but that doesn't matter. I just can't help but love them. Actually, I feel like a pretty noob fan to Visual Kei in general. Sometimes that gets me down. I think, "If only I had found Visual Kei sooner..." But, again. What're you gonna do. I've found it now, and that's what is important.

Oh shit, I made a whole paragraph just on that. Alright, well, I'll try and sum up the rest of what happened. I became even more obsessed with Japan than I already was, becoming extremely interested in Japanese street fashion and subcultures. I became an h.NAOTO fangirl, and its my dream to own three articles of clothing of his, at least. I bought a whole bunch of manga. I also bought quite a fair amount of anime, including the Naruto complete series box set. I've dyed my hair at least five times, right now it's half bleached and half black (I was trying to do something like Utahiroba Jun from Golden Bomber. It didn't entirely work out, but it's alright). I haven't gained or lost any weight, which I find both pleasing and frustrating. Narwhals. I've been going to see a dermatologist, and now my skin is actually pretty good. I'm now in my last year of high school, and in all honesty, I'm bugging out. I've lost and made friends, but let's not get into all that bullshit. One of my three cats died, which was sad, but she was a bit of a wild cat, and she prefered to spend her time outside away from people, so I feel like I never really got emotionally attached to her. And actually, that's about all the remotely interesting things I can think of. Other than that, I've sort of just been standing back and letting the world go by.

I think I'm done for the day. I honestly don't know what inspired me to write here again. But I do know that I have a hell of a lot of homework to do. I have to read four novels in two weeks, which may not sound like much, but I'm not a very fast reader, and I do have something of a life, i.e. spending all my time fangirling.

Oh, here are some things of mine. I like getting new followers, and, for the most part, I always follow back.
Twitter - https://twitter.com/#!/_automaticeyes
Pinterest - http://pinterest.com/wonderholic/

Ah, and one more thing! The title of this post is a quote, from Takeru of SuG.

Now playing: LM.C - BABY TALK