Memories Drift In And Out Of My Mind~

And the little people get left behind~
So whateverrrrrrr~

That may or may not be one of my favourite Adventure Time quotes ever. I have my reasons ok. Anyway it's only marginally relevant to this post, in the way of I have forgotten pretty much everything that I have done between now and my last post. Which, was over a month ago huhuhu forever a useless blogger. That being said, I probably haven't even done that much, so I guess it's no huge loss. I feel like my posts are just getting really repetitive. Me not remembering if I did anything of interest, and just rambling about music things or anime things, because that's pretty much all my life consists of.

Other than going to work on Sundays and Mondays, I don't really get out that much. If I do go out it's usually just to go to the supermarket or the library or something. I don't mind it. I prefer staying home. This past month I only really made an effort and got dressed up to go out once. It was nice, I do like making an effort. I just don't see the point in going to all the trouble if I know I'm only going to be out for like, an hour. And I'm actually really lazy and it takes me ages to get ready and sometimes you know, it's just not worth it. This one time I was actually out for the whole day though, so I tried.

Yes hello this is my face and I actually kind of liked how it looked that day ok.

Top notch editing I know try to not be too overwhelmed. (She was pulling a huge derp face and would probably de-friend me if I posted the normal picture).

I didn't get a chance to take a full outfit picture this day, so this will have to do. I was wearing tattoo tights with scissors on them with thigh-high ripped socks over top, and my white Doc Martins. The shirt is Super Lovers and the cardigan is Listen Flavor. 

Other than that, and working, I didn't go out much. Just stayed home watching anime. No regrets. 

I received my copy of GOTCHAROCKA's Crisis~ No Toya card again this time, but I was pretty happy to receive the card with all of them! I would like to review the album, but I feel I've left it too late, and honestly I think I need to listen through it a few more times before I'd be able to review it properly. By properly, I mean more than just mindless fangirling about how fucking fantastic it is because it is fUCKING FANTASTIC OMFG. 

Actually, something that you may have noticed that's been happening with me is the move away from music being my dominant interest, back to anime and manga. I say 'back', because before I was obsessed with jrock and visual kei, I was already obsessed with anime and manga. So this is all nothing new to me. It's hard to explain really, but basically I have a very one-track mind, and I can't really be obsessed with more than one thing at a time. You know. Like, I'll still love my other interests, but I can only handle one dominant interest at a time. I know, it's kind of pathetic huh... But it's just the way my mind works, I can't help it. Because when I'm interested in something, I throw my whole being into liking it. It's hard to keep up with myself sometimes. In a way though, I've realized, that's why I've stopped being so interested in music. Well, that's not right. I still love music, and I still listen to music all the time. I guess I should be more specific, and say that's why I've stopped being so interested in visual kei. Why I've stopped trying to immerse myself in it. It's too hard to keep up with the whole scene, sometimes. There's always something being released, from countless artists, be it a single, and album, a DVD, magazines. Bands are breaking up and forming left right and center. It's actually exhausting trying to keep up with it all, and there came a point for me where it was no longer fun to try. It wasn't something I enjoyed doing. Trying to be up to date on all the artists I listen to, trying to hunt down entire discographies before I felt I had the right to call myself a fan, knowing who is releasing what and when, and deciding which releases I would be able to buy. I found myself no longer being able to justify spending $35 on a single, or $50 on a mini album. Keeping up with interviews and live streams and blogs and twitters... honestly, it just became too much. I feel like there's so much pressure, if you're a fan of visual kei, for you to be and act a certain way. I don't really feel like getting into all that right now though, so I'll just leave it at that. And actually, I feel happier now because of this. I just listen to whatever I feel like, whatever makes me happy. I do still listen to the visual artists that I like, of course, my favourite bands are visual. But I've stopped forcing myself to try to keep up, and I'm branching out my musical tastes a bit. It's refreshing, you know. 

Anywaaaay. Speaking of anime (we weren't really speaking about it but humor me ok), instead of spending all my earnings on CDs and the like, I've been buying more anime and manga related goods. I regret nothing.

Two issues of Pash! magazine (June issue with Karneval on the cover, and August issue with SNK on the cover yehyeh). The Karneval Illustration Book, which is really beautiful by the way. If you're a fan of the series this book is a must. Volumes 10+11 of the Karneval manga, a another Karneval book. I'm not sure what it is exactly, it's more manga and I guess stories that aren't related to the main storyline? Idk, but it was super cheap, so I got it. Nice order, huh. It cost me an arm and a leg in shipping, but it was so worth it. 

Then I received this order just yesterday. Pash! September issue with Free! on the cover (hnnn babies), Karneval Animation Guide, and Karneval volume 1 on Blu-ray. While the Blu-rays are substantially more expensive than the DVDs, they do have English subtitles and are compatible with my PS3, so I didn't really have choice. It's very pretty though huhuhu. I've also ordered some SNK phone straps, some useless Karneval merch, the first SNK Illustration book and the second Karneval Blu-ray. I'm also waiting until it's a little closer to the release date to order the Free! animation guide book. I'm pumped, yo.

Also, I'm not sure if you've noticed the difference in the quality of my photos between the last one and all the rest. It's because the last photo was taken on my new iPhone 5 whaaaaat uuuuuup~ I'm sorry, I'm just really stoked to have it. I've already had it a week but I'm still buzzing over it. Ah, I can feel my Apple snob status has been elevated 50%.  

And that's all I've got this time, really. This post was super all over the place, so I'm sorry about that. How do blog. Idk. Haven't figured it out yet sorrrrrrry. 

I'm planning on making my next post another anime post, but this time mostly centered around the on-going series that I'm watching right now (with the exception of SNK cause I've already written about it). I'm actually really excited to write it and I'll probably get started on it within the next few days, so please look forward to it! It'll probably be 100% more interesting than this lame post (and all my other lame posts about my life for that matter). 

No now playing today because I'm not listening to anything. I'm blogging and watching Must Love Cats at the same time. 

Your Gut Says He's Evil~!

My gut says he's good! Let's put our guts together, and end this funky feud~!
Yeah. Guess who's watching Adventure Time. As usual... Anyway, on with the show~

So, I know that it was announced a little while ago now, but it still hasn't quite sunk in yet that LILT will be disbanding soon. Really soon, in fact. I really adore LILT. I realise that I say this about a lot of bands, but every time I say it it's completely true. As for LILT, their music is just so fucking positive and upbeat, it's impossible to feel depressed or upset when listening to them. They may not be the greatest band in the world, and they may not be the most skilled musicians in the world (although I think they're all great - particularly Rei, he is amazing~), but their messages are strong and their passion is clearly just as powerful. I think when the members of a band are obviously loving what they do, and really enjoy being in a band together, it makes the experience all the more enjoyable; for the members and fans alike. I think I've actually already said something like this before, except in relation to THE KIDDIE. I truly believe it, for any band, the functionality of the band depends on the dynamic of the band and the relationships of the members. Ok, so I guess that doesn't really make a whole lot of sense... it sounded better in my head. Anyway, I guess what brought this on was the fact that I was derping on YouTube and I stumbled across LILT's PV for Sakuretsu Freedom. And the only thing I could think was that they all look so happy, like they're having so much fun together. It made me happy too, but sad at the same time. Happy, because... I guess it was just like an infectious happiness that came from that video. You can't not smile with them. I mean, Kou, Rubia and Rei's smiles are just too fucking precious, and while Tsuakasa may not smile quite as much, when he does it's just like a big D'AWWW. And they smiled and laughed together, while making this great, uplifting music that never fails to make my day that much brighter. And so for the same reason, it made me sad. Because there isn't going to be any more of that. Sure, I can always just listen to what they have released. But it won't be the same, knowing that these awesome guys that I love so much and bring me so much happiness are no longer together. No longer making their awesome music together, no more laughing during the making of PVs together. And it just makes me wonder what happened. What was it that lead them to the decision to disband? I know, we will probably never know the reason why. That's how it always is. But they just seemed so happy together, and they had so much potential. Their music was improving a lot, CxLOSE was a really good release, I was so excited about it. I thought that they would keep going, and keep improving, with each new release being better than the last. But I guess crying and booing about it won't change anything. They're going to disband. All I can do now is hope and pray that we see Kou, Tsukasa, Rubia, Rei and Yuuha again soon in new projects, and support them in whatever they choose to take on next. I really wish to see at least a couple of the members in the same new band at some point. Because I refuse to think that their disbanding was due to the members arguing and not getting along. There's no way. Their band dynamic really worked. And even if they aren't in the same band, I want to see them again soon in the visual kei scene anyway, because they're all great musicians, and great guys.
As for my personal thoughts on why they disbanded, and this is only an uneducated guess/musing more like, but maybe it was because they felt they had reached their limit musically-speaking as a band. Like, if they continued, there would be nowhere for their music to go - their musical direction would be at a dead end. So, that way, it's not an issue with the members. It's just that maybe they reached their limit as a band. Who knows, maybe they'll all come back together as a new band, kind of like SINCREA to Fest Vainqueur.
I know, this LILT-disbandment contemplation post is getting pretty long, but I just have one more thing. I kind of feel sorry for Yuuha, the newer member. I mean, he only got to be in the band for what, seven months or something? Having only one release with them. It kinda sucks for him. And he was really cool too! I was looking forward to seeing more of his skills and what he can do. Oh well, I hope to see him again soon.

Ok, wow, sorry. That was a really long rant(?), of sorts, for lack of a better word. And it was probably really incoherent and doesn't make much sense but ehhhh... I'm trying~! Ok, so moving on.
I used a shopping service for the first time yesterday. I used Tenso, because it seems like the most reliable - even Rakuten directs you to them. I wanted to order from the SUPER LOVERS online shop, because they had some things on sale that I've been wanting from CDJapan, but they aren't on sale there. So, I've placed my order and paid, and hopefully my items will be on their way to the Tenso address I was given, where Tenso will then mail them to me. I'm really fucking nervous, because I've never used a shopping service before, so here's hoping it all goes well. I'll do a better review-ish post once I actually get my stuff (and maybe by then I will have figured out how to add photos to a post~) .

Speaking of mail, I really can't wait to get my AYABIE and SID albums. Whaaaa hurry up mailman! I'll admit to downloading AYABIE's album already... I couldn't wait. And it's really fantastic, I love it. I think one of the best things is the intro song, and the way it flows into Rise. It's such a cute intro, and I love that it's the melody to Ryuusei, the last song on the album. Well played, AYABIE! It really pulled me into the album. But, again, I wanna talk about it more when I actually get my own copy... I think this post is long enough already. ^^;;

Today I was walking to school by myself, as always, listening to music in my own world. And acquaintance of mine caught up to me and started walking beside me. It took me a couple of seconds to notice, but when I did I stopped walking and was like, "What are you doing?". They said that they were walking with me, but I was just like, "No, thanks~". And then they were all, wtf... okay... and walked on ahead. I did feel a little mean, but I just really hate being interrupted on my walks to school. I like walking by myself, I choose to do it. It's the only time during the day when I'm not at home where I can be by myself and just think, gather my thoughts and be in my own world and such. I don't have to socialise (wow, I'm a loser...) and I can just be alone with my thoughts. Idk. Just let me have my alone time, dammit!

I'M SO SORRY FOR THIS LONG BORING POST. These are just the things that were predominantly playing on my mind when I decided to write this. I'm trying to be a more interesting person, but it's exhausting... please wait for me a little longer! ><

NP - LIVE Maniac by Jackman

Lieutenant Riggs Can Totally Fix It~

Why do I always get the desire to blog when I'm watching Regular Show? I guess all it's random gets my creative juices flowing... Eww, I hate that expression, why did I use it? Creative juices.  Am I the only one who finds it... gross? Well, I suppose I do have a bit of a dirty mind. I swear, my mind can make anything sexual. I don't do it on purpose, it just happens! Don't smite me, I really am a sweet, pure person....! I think. Maybe. I guess not. Whaaaaat?

Oh! I've been meaning to mention this for a while now. My manga collection (the ones I actually ownlol) is up to 99 COPIES. That means the next one I buy will be my 100th manga! Wow~ Ok, so 100 manga may not be all that many to a lot of people. But I'm sorry, it's actually a pretty big deal for me. I just think it's a special milestone in my foreveralonealwaysobsessed life. So I've been trying to think of what I want my 100th manga to be. My dream 100th manga would be the Fullmetal Alchemist or Death Note box set, because they're both some of my all time favourites. But right now I can't afford that, there's no way I can stretch my money like that. So I think I might make it the first volume of Black Butler, because I've been wanting it for a while now, and Black Butler is also one of my absolute favourites. I might hold off buying manga until I can afford the Fullmetal Alchemist or Death Note set though... they're really quite beautiful. *O* And actually pretty good value for money!

I started back at school this week wahhhhhh! So far I have been managing to get up at 7am. But it still sucks. I really hate school. It's such a drag. Ohh, I'm turning into Shikamaru! None of my teachers have been cutting us students any slack, though! They're like, Oh it's the first day back? Have all this new course content and this homework assessment and hey how about an in-class essay this Friday! Oh well. It's Friday tomorrow. Yes, I do actually have to do an essay tomorrow for Literature class. And a topic test for History. But I think I'll manage~

Hmm my writing is really ugly right now... I don't like the way I've written this blog. I think I had more things to say, but I really can't remember. My brain is just mush right now, I'm exhausted. I feel like I have whacked out poo brain. Thank you Adventure Time for the diagnosis~

*EDIT* I just noticed that people from my country have been viewing my blog. That makes me both extremely happy and extremely nervous. It makes me nervous because... what if they're people I know in real life? THEY CAN'T SEE THIS BLOG. But then happy, because it may well not be people I actually know. It might be people from my country who actually have the same interests as me, and that's awesome, because such people are few and far between. I would love to meet more Japan/visual kei fans who live in New Zealand!

NP - Guillotine by BugLug

Check Out My Steaz~

You know that drink brand, Steaz? Yeah, their raspberry sparkling green tea is like sunshine, lollipops and rainbows in my mouth. Aaaaand now I, and you reading this, have that song in your head! Sorry... At least now I don't have Lumpy Space Princess' song in my head. I've had the lines "These lumps, I know you want some~" in my head for about three days. Oh, but it's not so bad, because sometimes it alternates between that song, and Jake's tropical island song. Oh my glob, that has to be my favourite Adventure Time song. It's my ringtone. It's also my wake-up alarm. But seeing as I'm on break now, I don't get to hear it every morning. So I just play it at random throughout the day. I would talk about what I've done/am doing/will do for my break, but I legitimately haven't done/am not doing/will not do anything. For the past five days I've just been sitting on the sofa, playing Sims, watching Adventure Time and wasting away on the internet. My routine is as follows: Get up at 12pm, sit around in pajamas playing the Sims until 3pm, shower and change into clothes with the equivalent comfort of pajamas, watch Adventure Time (it's on every day at 3.30!), derp on the internet, play more Sims, watch Adventure Time again (it's also on at 7pm every day!), alternate between more internet and more Sims, and also watch whatever trash is on TV until about 3 or 4 am, then go to bed. I haven't watched any of the anime that I want to, or read any manga. I'm so disappointed in myself. I'm too lazy to be lazy! Okay, starting tomorrow, it will be a Naruto marathon! Fighting spirit hoyyyy!

Speaking of anime/manga, I just finished a huge request haul from my library. I'm seriously behind on my manga, so this is way overdue. I actually kind of want to slap myself, I should have requested all these books before the break started. Now I'm not going to get them until about halfway through my break. I'm still super excited, none-the-less. For the majority of them, I'm the only person who has requested them, so I should get them in a few days. Apart from Black Butler, of course, the one I'm most eager to read. Right now I'm at 22 out of 33 holds. I decided I'd also request the next volume too, so I don't have to wait quite as long. Status for that volume is at 60 out of 61. Jesus christ. Just in case you want to know what I'm reading at the moment, here's the list of what I have on requested:
Haruka: Beyond The Stream of Time vol. 10
Nosatsu Junkie vol. 5
The Devil Does Exist vol. 8
Lovely Complex (Love Com) vol. 8
Land of the Blindfolded vol. 9
Hana-Kimi vol. 7
Gakuen Alice vol. 11
B.O.D.Y. vol. 4
Cardcaptor Sakura vol. 5
Naruto vol. 7
Loveless vol. 9
Black Butler vol. 9 + 10

I'm actually reading more series than this, these are just the chosen ones for this haul~ I'm a little worried, though, because it's been a little while since I read these the last volumes of these series, I'm not 100% of which volume I have to read next... I thought I had already read Gakuen Alice 11, but the synopsis didn't sound familiar. And Hana-Kimi, I feel like I've read more than just six volumes of it... Oh well, we'll see how it goes! Oh, also, the other one that I am really desperate to read, Loveless 9, is going to take longer because the library doesn't actually have any copies yet. They have ordered some, and so far only two other people have requested it, so I'll definitely be getting a first copy! Yay! That means I get the smell of new book! That sounds weird... But everyone loves the smell of a new book, right?

Oh, just while I'm here, I'll REALLY quickly talk again about Paradeis' disbandment news. So you know how I said that it hadn't really hit me that day, when I read the news, and I just felt shocked? Well, that afternoon, it hit me like a tidal wave. I was just starting to sort out my room and do some cleaning in there, so I turned my iPod onto shuffle, and about three songs in, LoLli★Lollipop, the first Paradeis song I heard, started playing. Let me just say, I ugly sobbed for a good while. Not a lot of cleaning got done that afternoon. I'm glad that there wasn't really anyone at home, phew. I was sad for the rest of the day, but I eventually got around to cleaning my room that evening. I actually threw myself into tidying as a distraction, and ended up listening to some bands that I'm really starting to love. Like Royz. I know, I'm a little behind on them, but they're really good! Also the LEM, Rivet, 2nd Dyz, FUTURISM・BOYZ, and Crazy shampoo. I already liked these bands, but I'd never really given them a proper listen until now. I know, I'm Captain Slow, but better late than never, right?


Ok, this post was a bit of a mixture. I'm tired. Doing nothing all day is hard work. 
Maybe I should go to sleep earlier today.... Pfffffft.


NP - ONE story by 2nd Dyz

I Forgot How To Breathe~

No, really. I'm not being stupid and soppy and teenagerish. I actually have a breathing pattern disorder. It's called hyperventilation syndrome. Mine isn't quite as bad as it sounds. I don't do the hyperventilating, but that's because my case is only mild at the moment. I'm a chronic mouth breather, so that causes me to yawn and sigh all the time, and often feel like I'm hungry and gasping for air. I've just recently started seeing a specialist, so hopefully I will re-learn how to nose breathe. It feels really unnatural and uncomfortable at the moment, but apparently it can take two to three months to be comfortable with nose breathing again. But I'd rather spend three months trying to fix it than live with the feeling that I'm gonna die if I don't get enough air. I know I won't, but that's just how it feels, so I always find my self trying to breathe in through my mouth as deeply as possible. Not how you're supposed to do it. Also, this disorder isn't weird, it's actually pretty common, and can happen to people of any age. If you think you're having issues with breathing, get it checked out sooner rather than later mmkay~?

On Saturday I went to see a one hour screening of Adventure Time at the cinema! It cost $10, and we were SUPPOSED to get free Finn hats, but the dumbass organizers didn't order enough hats, so only the people under ten years old got one. Me and my friends, and numerous other viewers, were like, bitch please. There were only about ten kids under 10. The rest were teenagers, my age. Because let's be honest, Adventure Time is way more suited towards teenagers, or at least people over the age of ten. So we were all pretty mad about that (and we wrote some strongly worded complaints to the movie theatre when we got home), but seeing Adventure Time on a big screen was actually pretty awesome. I love Adventure Time, so I was just really happy and excited, and it was a fun experience. I wouldn't do it again for $10 though... maybe for $5.

So I've recently found some online stores that sell fake nails that I really love. I'm thinking about buying some soon, because I still have birthday money from my relatives. I think I'm going to buy a Tamiya t-shirt first though, the tell-tale sign of a Golden Bomber fan~ Could also be two-tone hair, face paint and Gachapin and Mukku things. XD

Threeeee moreeeee daaaaaays! And then a two week break. I know it doesn't sound like much, but still. I don't have to deal with people I don't like everyday. I can stay in my pajamas all day. I can catch up on some anime, and read the pile of manga I have waiting for me beside my bed. Which, in case you are curious, includes Fairy Cube, Loveless, Ouran High School Host Club, Shugo Chara!, Sand Chronicles, and others. I've already read all of Ouran, but it is my second favourite series ever, so I'm re-reading it for the millionth time. I actually only own four physical copies of it though. Slowly collecting them! It's such a wonderful series, so balanced and lovely. Tamaki is of course my favourite, but Hikaru is very, VERY close. I'm going to admit this now, I was never as drawn to Kyoya as many people seem to be. Mori was my favourite for a chapter or two. And for my first watching of the anime (yes, I watched the anime first), I adored Honey. But I've actually come to really dislike Honey. I can't be bothered explaining it much further than that right now, though. I've also read Shugo Chara! before, it's also a favourite, but I'm yet to watch the anime. I actually think I've written about Shugo Chara! in this blog before... Hey, maybe I'll spend my break watching the anime! As for Loveless, I'm actually up to volume 9, but I haven't been able to find it anywhere, so I'm re-reading what I've read so far. I'll probably watch the anime for that in the break too. But I really want to read on! It's so good where I've come to a stop, and the suspense is killing me! Must find! I don't really like reading manga online, I prefer to hold the actual book in my hand. Of course, I have to read a lot online, but I always check the library first. It's usually pretty good, my library.

Speaking of the library, I've requested Black Butler volume 9, but at the moment I'm number 28 on the hold list. I'm not going to get it for at least a month. Gahh, so much suspense~ =_=

Damn, now I'm in one of those moods where I really want to talk about anime and manga! But I don't have time right now. I know, I'm nowhere near close to an expert, and I guess in comparison to some others I don't read/watch that many series, but I still love it and love to talk about it none-the-less. Maybe one day I'll do a post purely dedicated to my anime and manga!

Wow, long post today. Cool beans. :3

NP - Pandora by Mix Speaker's,Inc.