I'm Just A Dirty Pervert~

Whooo, after my post with the GENERATION download, my page views have gone up considerably... Oh well, back to my normal, boring, hardly viewed posts now~ ^^;;

So what's up with me lately... give me a second to think about that. Uhh... really, not much has happened. Surprised? I'm not. I don't tend to lead the most exciting of lives. I guess, the most note-worthy thing that has happened recently is how I finished high school last week. Wednesday was my last ever day at high school. Yeah, it hasn't really hit me yet. I don't think it will, to be honest. I feel like that part of my life will just blur into the distance. I don't feel particularly happy or sad about it. I guess my feeling is indifference. I'm not really bothered by it too much. Of course, I have people that I will really miss seeing every day, namely my Japanese friends who will be returning to Japan very soon. I'm actually getting kinda depressed just writing about them... But it's not like I'm depressed about leaving my school. Honestly, I really didn't enjoy my time at high school. This past year in particular has been a real drag. I'm not going to miss going at all, and I certainly won't miss having to put up with judgemental, ignorant and just straight-up irritating fuck-wits everyday. There are by far more people that I couldn't stand at my school compared to those that I actually liked. Hopefully I never have to see/deal with them again though, and this thought makes me rather happy. I can't be bothered writing more about how I feel about it right now though, I haven't really figured out my feelings myself yet. Maybe there'll be more to come on the subject later.

Err... so, me and my friend went for a picnic of sorts on Saturday. I suppose that's something interesting that happened? Interesting by my standards, anyway... //foreversocialvegetable
We just got drinks from a tea place called Hulu Cat, although ironically neither of us got tea... we both chose slushies, because it was really hot that day. Then we got bakery food and went up to the park. Even though there were quite a few people there, it was still really quiet and relaxing.

My friend had strawberry with grape jelly, I had mango with green apple jelly~

It was a good day ^^

And of course, the mandatory photo in the bathroom mirror. It's like a requirement of being female, or something. 

Ehehe, excuse the derp emanating from us both. 

Then at night we went with my brother to another tea house called Momo Tea, to meet up with her sister + sister's boyfriend + our friend Yumika. And again, ironically neither of us got tea! It had a taro milkshake with pearls, and she had grape natta. Yeah, she likes grape. I didn't get any photos of that though. After that, we went to this thing called Art in the Dark. It was in some park and there were all these light effects and weird things going on. Honestly though, I wouldn't call it art. It was more like technology in the dark. Shining a light in a tree and making it change colour isn't art. Hanging some nice smelling lanterns in trees isn't art. Projecting things onto a building isn't art. It was just a whole bunch of technology. So it was kind of disappointing, but hey, it was something to do. And that's all~

So I suppose I'd better get around to talking about what inspired the title of this post, as so far it hasn't been explained, and I've already rambled a lot. I have been spending WAY too much time on Mangago.com reading err, inappropriate materials -cough-yaoi-cough-... Seriously though, I'll start with a oneshot, and once I finish it will suggest a whole bunch of similar stories for me to read, and most of them are oneshots or really short, like two volume series. So I just end up reading random stories for ages, it's a never ending cycle. I like to chose the ones with the 'smut' tag... BECAUSE I'M A DIRTY GOOD FOR NOTHING PERVERT, OKAY. I'll admit it. Reading smutty yaoi is now one of my most time consuming hobbies. I was supposed to dedicate today to studying, but I decided that I'd just read one or two stories, and then bam! I'd spent four hours reading yaoi and the only reason I stopped was because I hadn't eaten anything at all today and my insides were crying. Just like my brain. My brain is soiled, and now all I can think about is yaoi. Okay, that's an exaggeration. It's more like, my brain is a pendulum, that swings between fangirling over bands and feeling ashamed but somehow regretting nothing about my perverted desire to read shit loads of yaoi. Although, I do also think about shopping a lot, online of course, but I never get very far with that because there always comes the point where I realise that I have no money. So yeah. To fill my void, I read yaoi. Good to know... 

Ehh this post has been a weird mix of things huh. I'll finish here. Okay. See you~

Now Playing - A Blueberry Night by LM.C 

What's Up~?

Listening to Called≠Plan. Damn they're great. I can't wait to hear their new stuff, 'V-Rap Style', was it? The preview of the single sounds awesome. Although, I was under the impression that they would be changing the band name. Not that I mind, I like Called≠Plan. I would like to know what it means, though... where did they come up with it? Oh, and the new drummer is a sweetie, isn't he? Actually, C≠P is just a band full of ikemen OHGOD I USED A JAPANESE WORDS FUCK SORRY I MEANT GOOD LOOKING DUDES. I don't like to use random Japanese words, so I'm sorry about that. Anyway, what I mean is that they're all very aesthetically appealing men... Ehh, I'm trying to describe it without being all fangirlish, but it feels too unnatural  So I'm going to stop trying to sound sensible and mature here now. I mean they're sexy. Like, fuck are they sexy. I have strong feelings towards Yuuto in particular, holy damn, I would. Even just listening to his voice through my headphones is just hnnnnn. Plus, he's actually a really sweet guy! I'm not sure if it's true, but he said that he doesn't smoke or drink alcohol. I think the part about him smoking is legit, but I dunno if he actually doesn't drink. I've convinced myself that it is true, though, because it makes me feel more comfortable about my own choices to not drink or smoke. I can feel really lonely sometimes because of it, and I feel like I'll never meet anyone else like me, but when I think how Yuuto could be the same, it makes me feel stronger. And when I read that, I fell in love with him. Of course, not real love because I don't actually know him, but you know what I mean, right? Also, at first I never used to find Rei attractive, mainly because of his smoking, but in his latest blog post I've just been like well fuCK ME SIDEWAYS. And of course, Syu is always sexy. Ehehehe, sorry about this fangirling here! I didn't actually intend to talk about them this much, but I got carried away... and now I've forgotten what else I was going to talk about!

So, it's holiday time here, and you know what that means? It's time for me to request a fucktonne of manga to catch up on! Awww yisssssss. The way this works is, during the school term, I generally don't read much manga, unless I happen to be at the library and find one I am interested in. So when it comes to the break, I request and read as much manga as I can. I just finished requesting a whole bunch of manga from my library! Hopefully I'll get most of them by Friday. I currently have 24 requested. I feel a little awkward, because that is a lot of books, but I read them very quickly, and I honestly have nothing else to do for the next two weeks, so I'm going to read as much as I can. This is how my holiday reading is looking so far;

• Haruka: Beyond the Stream of Time vol. 12
• The Devil Does Exist vol. 10
• Love Com vol. 9
• Gakuen Alice vol. 14
• Mixed Vegetables vol. 5
• Hana-Kimi vol. 9
• Loveless vol. 9 (Finally! Been waiting for this for months! This series was my first exposure to the wonders of BL, and I'm so excited to read it I actually can't wait~)
• B.O.D.Y. vol. 6
• Black Butler vol. 9
• Bakuman vol.2
• Library Wars vol. 2 (This one is looking to be a good one!)
• The Tyrant Falls In Love vol.3 (Hehehe... >///<)
• Fullmetal Alchemist vol.7
• Honey Hunt vol.3 
• The Story of Saiunkoku vol.2
• Hetalia vol.2
• Naruto vol. 8 (Shhh I love Naruto ok XD)
• Psyren vol.2 (This one is really interesting! I've only read one volume, but I really recommend it! It's almost like Gantz... But waaaay less violent and explicit.)
• Sand Chronicles vol. 4
• Wild Ones vol. 2
• Heaven!! Vol. 2
• Ouran High School Host Club vol. 6 (Already read Ouran twice, but I'm reading it again)
• Crimson Hero vol. 3
• Girl Got Game vol. 1 (Requested this because it's the same artist as Love Attack! and Heaven!! Love her stories, especially her take-no-shit-from-anyone main girl characters)

Yeah, most are shoujo. I've already been over this, I'm a shoujo junkie. There are a couple that aren't shoujo  though. Not that it matters to me. I regret nothing, and I have nothing to hide. Except for The Tyrant Falls In Love, the only yaoi and 18+ manga on there. But I'll only hide that from my parents and most people I know in real life.... I'm a little worried that when I go to check it out from the library, they'll see on my account that I'm not 18, and ask me to get it out from the front desk or something. Usually I use the self checkouts... I don't want them to see it, because even the cover of it is obviously guy love... Oh well, if they do I just won't get it out. I'll read it online instead. XD

I also plan to watch as much Naruto as possible these holidays, to finally fill in all the gaps in my knowledge once and for all. No, I haven't seen every single episode. I've seen large chunks, but there are also chunks that I haven't watched yet. So I'm hoping to watch all of the original series. As for Shippuden, well... I'll say that I'm quite a way behind on that one... maybe next holidays I'll try catch up on that...

Oh wait, my next holiday isn't really a holiday. Because after this break, I only have three more weeks left of high school. Then it's three weeks of studying and final exams, and then... I'm free? My school life will be over until I go to Uni... but it's not really the same kind of student. Wow. Shit. Ok. It hadn't quite hit home yet. I still don't think it has. I just can't imagine not being at school anymore. I know I say that I hate it and everyone there, but honestly I'm not looking forward to leaving. Because there are people I will miss. Mostly, the Japanese students who have been here for two years and who I have become friends with. Also because, I'm gonna have to grow up. And I definitely don't want to do that. Ahh, I guess I'll think about all that when the time comes. No point worrying about it now. 

I'll leave it at that today. I'm still not happy with how my writing is... I feel like it will be painful for people to read. I'm sorry, and as always, I'll try harder next time~!

NP - I sing for you by THE KIDDIE (I love this song and band so much omfg)

Lieutenant Riggs Can Totally Fix It~

Why do I always get the desire to blog when I'm watching Regular Show? I guess all it's random gets my creative juices flowing... Eww, I hate that expression, why did I use it? Creative juices.  Am I the only one who finds it... gross? Well, I suppose I do have a bit of a dirty mind. I swear, my mind can make anything sexual. I don't do it on purpose, it just happens! Don't smite me, I really am a sweet, pure person....! I think. Maybe. I guess not. Whaaaaat?

Oh! I've been meaning to mention this for a while now. My manga collection (the ones I actually ownlol) is up to 99 COPIES. That means the next one I buy will be my 100th manga! Wow~ Ok, so 100 manga may not be all that many to a lot of people. But I'm sorry, it's actually a pretty big deal for me. I just think it's a special milestone in my foreveralonealwaysobsessed life. So I've been trying to think of what I want my 100th manga to be. My dream 100th manga would be the Fullmetal Alchemist or Death Note box set, because they're both some of my all time favourites. But right now I can't afford that, there's no way I can stretch my money like that. So I think I might make it the first volume of Black Butler, because I've been wanting it for a while now, and Black Butler is also one of my absolute favourites. I might hold off buying manga until I can afford the Fullmetal Alchemist or Death Note set though... they're really quite beautiful. *O* And actually pretty good value for money!

I started back at school this week wahhhhhh! So far I have been managing to get up at 7am. But it still sucks. I really hate school. It's such a drag. Ohh, I'm turning into Shikamaru! None of my teachers have been cutting us students any slack, though! They're like, Oh it's the first day back? Have all this new course content and this homework assessment and hey how about an in-class essay this Friday! Oh well. It's Friday tomorrow. Yes, I do actually have to do an essay tomorrow for Literature class. And a topic test for History. But I think I'll manage~

Hmm my writing is really ugly right now... I don't like the way I've written this blog. I think I had more things to say, but I really can't remember. My brain is just mush right now, I'm exhausted. I feel like I have whacked out poo brain. Thank you Adventure Time for the diagnosis~

*EDIT* I just noticed that people from my country have been viewing my blog. That makes me both extremely happy and extremely nervous. It makes me nervous because... what if they're people I know in real life? THEY CAN'T SEE THIS BLOG. But then happy, because it may well not be people I actually know. It might be people from my country who actually have the same interests as me, and that's awesome, because such people are few and far between. I would love to meet more Japan/visual kei fans who live in New Zealand!

NP - Guillotine by BugLug

Pin All The Things!

I'm almost done with a mad spam of pins on Pinterest. I hadn't really pinned anything in a while, and I lost a lot of followers for some of my boards! One of my boards used to have 100+ followers, now it's down to about 40~ So sad! If I ever see pictures and things that I like when I'm derping around on the internet, that I think could be pin-worthy, I save them into a folder. That folder had gotten pretty full, so I decided to clean it up a bit! If you're interested in checking out mah thangs, here's the link - http://pinterest.com/wonderholic/
It's mostly just fangirling, but I do pin clothes and stuff that I like, and sometimes just random images that bring me giggles. Feel free to browse and enjoy~

The other day, a package arrived for me. I wasn't expecting it to arrive so soon, so I was stoked! It was my albums, Tales for the Abyss from ACE, and 2PIKO from Piko! Both came with posters! Eeeeeeep! I'm so happy, both albums are fantastic! I particularly recommend Tales for the Abyss. Liek srsly. I probably won't bother doing one of my crappy reviews on it, mostly because I honestly can't find the words to describe it, but also because I am a lazy fuck. All I can say is that it is really, really amazing, and highly worth giving it a good listen. The best listening conditions would be when you're alone, or in a quiet space, and with enough time to listen to it solidly right the way through with no interruptions. I'd highly recommend that you listen to it at least once this way. It gives the best flow/feeling of the album, and then after you can go through and listen to your favourites. As for my favourites, Night of the Knights for sure, but also Abyss (Piano Version) is really stunningly beautiful, Shangri-La is super fun, and Haiiro no Tenshi and NU WORLD are great too. But really, I'm pretty much equal with my feelings on the songs, I think they're all incredible. ACE are such a unique and creative group of guys. They're the kind of guys that I'd just really want to sit down and talk to for hours and hang out with. Please do check them out!


So I've had this blog for two years now, and I am yet to figure out how to put photos or images or videos in my posts. It doesn't help that I'm already technologically impaired and I can't figure out any internet shit to begin with. I really don't understand coding, HTML or any of that. How is it that I'm taking a web design class at school lol? Damn. I'll need to try and find a simple English explanation for how to do it. Laaaaaaa.

I have school tomorrow, so I gotta get ready for sleeeeeeeep. I also need to decide what to wear tomorrow! The weather here is being really whack. It's not particularly cold, it is a little cold, but not hugely. But it's super fucking windy! And it's going to be heavy rain tomorrow! So it'll be humid. Humidity kills straightened hair! I always straighten my hair, otherwise it looks weird as hell. So tomorrow is not going to be a fun day. Oh well, only 8 more days before our two week break. Keep pushing through!

NP -  Yoake no Anthem by ACE

Look At All The Fucks I Give~

I always find myself with something that I want to write about here, but at the most awkward and inconvenient times. Like, when I'm walking home from school, or when I'm in the shower. There's no computer there! And I don't have an iPhone or anything technologically advanced like that, so I can't write it down. Then, when I'm finally in a position to be able to write something, I can't be bothered anymore. Damn I'm lazy. I guess it makes sense that one of my absolute favourite animals is the sloth. Seriously, those things are so frickin' adorable.

April! It was a really good month. Really, it was great for me. I guess I'll sum it up.
- LM.C's new album STRONG POP was released (of which I own limited A and B)
- SuG's new album LOLLIPOP KINGDOM was released (I have the 3939 Collectors Box)
- I got my copy of THE KIDDIE's new album MA★PIECE, which was actually released in March, but I had it shipped with SuG's album.
- I got a couple of new SEXPOT ReVeNGe things
- I got two h.NAOTO things! A really awesome h.ANARCHY cardigan, and a pair of Hangry&Angry shorts. Seriously, this made me so happy, I'm actually in love with h.NAOTO. Hirooka-san is such a genius with clothes.
- It was my mums birthday~ (I don't know how this was good for me, but y'know)
- I got the grades that I was aiming for in all my assessments! Whooooop~
- The term 1 holiday was within April
- Parent-Teacher interviews... all my teachers love me hehe (God knows why, I'm actually a terrible student)

I'm sure there are other things, but I can't remember them right now. I guess it's kind of late to talk about what happened in April now, anyway. We're almost half-way through May.

Lalalaherpaderpa. I completely forgot what else I was going to say for this. So I think it's best I leave it at that, otherwise I'm gonna implode my brain trying to remember what I had plannned.
Byebye~

NP - Bara Bara? by DEVI+TEC

Hey, Hey Mama!

So I recently started watching Hetalia: Axis Powers, and I have to say, I'm loving it. It was a pleasant surprise. I really wasn't sure what to expect, especially considering all the superyaoi fangirl pairings that I've seen around the interwebs... I held off watching it for this long because of that. I actually don't mind yaoi, although I prefer the less graphic stuff, but it's not exactly the kind of thing you can just be reading or watching when your parents walk in. I thought the actual show would have all these, y'know, pairings and such. But, gladly it doesn't. I guess the show does encourage these pairings, in a way, but not to the extent that it would bother the non-yaoi/BL fan, which is nice. It's a very funny, and quite frankly adorable, show, and even though I haven't even finished the first series yet, I know it's destined to be a favourite. The historical accuracy is a little off, though, but it makes up for that in lols and cuteness. I also find it interesting that Italy is shown as being the cowardly country - from what I've been taught in History it was France that was always waving the white flag, or crying for help. Hah. I know I had more to say, but I think I'll leave it at that for now.

I also joined last.fm recently. Recently as in, today. So feel free to friend me! I would love that, really~ I need some J-Rock/Visual Kei/Japan fan friends. I have none. //craicraiforeveralone
last.fm - http://www.last.fm/user/fairytears

It was the first day back at school today, after a disappointingly short two weeks. It made me realise just how much I hate people. Ugh. The whole day, I was thinking 'cannot deal cannot deal I want to go home'. And to make it worse, when all I want to do is just sink into the background and become part of the scenery, there always seems to be someone staring at me. Yes, I dyed my hair during the holidays. That doesn't call for raging stares of disbelief, bitter glares or snickering to your friends about how I'm so'lame' or some other judgemental bullshit that all those fucking plastic clones like to spout about people with even a scrap of individuality. Whoo. Sorry. End rant. Right. Tea, shower, and The Sims. That's my agenda for the night. I think I'll start now. Bye bye~

NP - 君PIECE by Called≠Plan