I'm Just A Dirty Pervert~

Whooo, after my post with the GENERATION download, my page views have gone up considerably... Oh well, back to my normal, boring, hardly viewed posts now~ ^^;;

So what's up with me lately... give me a second to think about that. Uhh... really, not much has happened. Surprised? I'm not. I don't tend to lead the most exciting of lives. I guess, the most note-worthy thing that has happened recently is how I finished high school last week. Wednesday was my last ever day at high school. Yeah, it hasn't really hit me yet. I don't think it will, to be honest. I feel like that part of my life will just blur into the distance. I don't feel particularly happy or sad about it. I guess my feeling is indifference. I'm not really bothered by it too much. Of course, I have people that I will really miss seeing every day, namely my Japanese friends who will be returning to Japan very soon. I'm actually getting kinda depressed just writing about them... But it's not like I'm depressed about leaving my school. Honestly, I really didn't enjoy my time at high school. This past year in particular has been a real drag. I'm not going to miss going at all, and I certainly won't miss having to put up with judgemental, ignorant and just straight-up irritating fuck-wits everyday. There are by far more people that I couldn't stand at my school compared to those that I actually liked. Hopefully I never have to see/deal with them again though, and this thought makes me rather happy. I can't be bothered writing more about how I feel about it right now though, I haven't really figured out my feelings myself yet. Maybe there'll be more to come on the subject later.

Err... so, me and my friend went for a picnic of sorts on Saturday. I suppose that's something interesting that happened? Interesting by my standards, anyway... //foreversocialvegetable
We just got drinks from a tea place called Hulu Cat, although ironically neither of us got tea... we both chose slushies, because it was really hot that day. Then we got bakery food and went up to the park. Even though there were quite a few people there, it was still really quiet and relaxing.

My friend had strawberry with grape jelly, I had mango with green apple jelly~

It was a good day ^^

And of course, the mandatory photo in the bathroom mirror. It's like a requirement of being female, or something. 

Ehehe, excuse the derp emanating from us both. 

Then at night we went with my brother to another tea house called Momo Tea, to meet up with her sister + sister's boyfriend + our friend Yumika. And again, ironically neither of us got tea! It had a taro milkshake with pearls, and she had grape natta. Yeah, she likes grape. I didn't get any photos of that though. After that, we went to this thing called Art in the Dark. It was in some park and there were all these light effects and weird things going on. Honestly though, I wouldn't call it art. It was more like technology in the dark. Shining a light in a tree and making it change colour isn't art. Hanging some nice smelling lanterns in trees isn't art. Projecting things onto a building isn't art. It was just a whole bunch of technology. So it was kind of disappointing, but hey, it was something to do. And that's all~

So I suppose I'd better get around to talking about what inspired the title of this post, as so far it hasn't been explained, and I've already rambled a lot. I have been spending WAY too much time on Mangago.com reading err, inappropriate materials -cough-yaoi-cough-... Seriously though, I'll start with a oneshot, and once I finish it will suggest a whole bunch of similar stories for me to read, and most of them are oneshots or really short, like two volume series. So I just end up reading random stories for ages, it's a never ending cycle. I like to chose the ones with the 'smut' tag... BECAUSE I'M A DIRTY GOOD FOR NOTHING PERVERT, OKAY. I'll admit it. Reading smutty yaoi is now one of my most time consuming hobbies. I was supposed to dedicate today to studying, but I decided that I'd just read one or two stories, and then bam! I'd spent four hours reading yaoi and the only reason I stopped was because I hadn't eaten anything at all today and my insides were crying. Just like my brain. My brain is soiled, and now all I can think about is yaoi. Okay, that's an exaggeration. It's more like, my brain is a pendulum, that swings between fangirling over bands and feeling ashamed but somehow regretting nothing about my perverted desire to read shit loads of yaoi. Although, I do also think about shopping a lot, online of course, but I never get very far with that because there always comes the point where I realise that I have no money. So yeah. To fill my void, I read yaoi. Good to know... 

Ehh this post has been a weird mix of things huh. I'll finish here. Okay. See you~

Now Playing - A Blueberry Night by LM.C 

What's Up~?

Listening to Called≠Plan. Damn they're great. I can't wait to hear their new stuff, 'V-Rap Style', was it? The preview of the single sounds awesome. Although, I was under the impression that they would be changing the band name. Not that I mind, I like Called≠Plan. I would like to know what it means, though... where did they come up with it? Oh, and the new drummer is a sweetie, isn't he? Actually, C≠P is just a band full of ikemen OHGOD I USED A JAPANESE WORDS FUCK SORRY I MEANT GOOD LOOKING DUDES. I don't like to use random Japanese words, so I'm sorry about that. Anyway, what I mean is that they're all very aesthetically appealing men... Ehh, I'm trying to describe it without being all fangirlish, but it feels too unnatural  So I'm going to stop trying to sound sensible and mature here now. I mean they're sexy. Like, fuck are they sexy. I have strong feelings towards Yuuto in particular, holy damn, I would. Even just listening to his voice through my headphones is just hnnnnn. Plus, he's actually a really sweet guy! I'm not sure if it's true, but he said that he doesn't smoke or drink alcohol. I think the part about him smoking is legit, but I dunno if he actually doesn't drink. I've convinced myself that it is true, though, because it makes me feel more comfortable about my own choices to not drink or smoke. I can feel really lonely sometimes because of it, and I feel like I'll never meet anyone else like me, but when I think how Yuuto could be the same, it makes me feel stronger. And when I read that, I fell in love with him. Of course, not real love because I don't actually know him, but you know what I mean, right? Also, at first I never used to find Rei attractive, mainly because of his smoking, but in his latest blog post I've just been like well fuCK ME SIDEWAYS. And of course, Syu is always sexy. Ehehehe, sorry about this fangirling here! I didn't actually intend to talk about them this much, but I got carried away... and now I've forgotten what else I was going to talk about!

So, it's holiday time here, and you know what that means? It's time for me to request a fucktonne of manga to catch up on! Awww yisssssss. The way this works is, during the school term, I generally don't read much manga, unless I happen to be at the library and find one I am interested in. So when it comes to the break, I request and read as much manga as I can. I just finished requesting a whole bunch of manga from my library! Hopefully I'll get most of them by Friday. I currently have 24 requested. I feel a little awkward, because that is a lot of books, but I read them very quickly, and I honestly have nothing else to do for the next two weeks, so I'm going to read as much as I can. This is how my holiday reading is looking so far;

• Haruka: Beyond the Stream of Time vol. 12
• The Devil Does Exist vol. 10
• Love Com vol. 9
• Gakuen Alice vol. 14
• Mixed Vegetables vol. 5
• Hana-Kimi vol. 9
• Loveless vol. 9 (Finally! Been waiting for this for months! This series was my first exposure to the wonders of BL, and I'm so excited to read it I actually can't wait~)
• B.O.D.Y. vol. 6
• Black Butler vol. 9
• Bakuman vol.2
• Library Wars vol. 2 (This one is looking to be a good one!)
• The Tyrant Falls In Love vol.3 (Hehehe... >///<)
• Fullmetal Alchemist vol.7
• Honey Hunt vol.3 
• The Story of Saiunkoku vol.2
• Hetalia vol.2
• Naruto vol. 8 (Shhh I love Naruto ok XD)
• Psyren vol.2 (This one is really interesting! I've only read one volume, but I really recommend it! It's almost like Gantz... But waaaay less violent and explicit.)
• Sand Chronicles vol. 4
• Wild Ones vol. 2
• Heaven!! Vol. 2
• Ouran High School Host Club vol. 6 (Already read Ouran twice, but I'm reading it again)
• Crimson Hero vol. 3
• Girl Got Game vol. 1 (Requested this because it's the same artist as Love Attack! and Heaven!! Love her stories, especially her take-no-shit-from-anyone main girl characters)

Yeah, most are shoujo. I've already been over this, I'm a shoujo junkie. There are a couple that aren't shoujo  though. Not that it matters to me. I regret nothing, and I have nothing to hide. Except for The Tyrant Falls In Love, the only yaoi and 18+ manga on there. But I'll only hide that from my parents and most people I know in real life.... I'm a little worried that when I go to check it out from the library, they'll see on my account that I'm not 18, and ask me to get it out from the front desk or something. Usually I use the self checkouts... I don't want them to see it, because even the cover of it is obviously guy love... Oh well, if they do I just won't get it out. I'll read it online instead. XD

I also plan to watch as much Naruto as possible these holidays, to finally fill in all the gaps in my knowledge once and for all. No, I haven't seen every single episode. I've seen large chunks, but there are also chunks that I haven't watched yet. So I'm hoping to watch all of the original series. As for Shippuden, well... I'll say that I'm quite a way behind on that one... maybe next holidays I'll try catch up on that...

Oh wait, my next holiday isn't really a holiday. Because after this break, I only have three more weeks left of high school. Then it's three weeks of studying and final exams, and then... I'm free? My school life will be over until I go to Uni... but it's not really the same kind of student. Wow. Shit. Ok. It hadn't quite hit home yet. I still don't think it has. I just can't imagine not being at school anymore. I know I say that I hate it and everyone there, but honestly I'm not looking forward to leaving. Because there are people I will miss. Mostly, the Japanese students who have been here for two years and who I have become friends with. Also because, I'm gonna have to grow up. And I definitely don't want to do that. Ahh, I guess I'll think about all that when the time comes. No point worrying about it now. 

I'll leave it at that today. I'm still not happy with how my writing is... I feel like it will be painful for people to read. I'm sorry, and as always, I'll try harder next time~!

NP - I sing for you by THE KIDDIE (I love this song and band so much omfg)

G.O.T.C.H.A.6.K.A~!

For a while now I've been thinking that I should update my blog. You know, change the layout and format and all that. And I really would like to, because honestly, this one that I have now I super fucking boring. It's been the same since I first started this blog just over three years ago. The thing is, I just really don't like any of the other pre-set layouts provided by Blogger, and I'm waaay to technologically impaired to make my own. Seriously, I am clueless when it comes to HTML and coding... Which is actually quite funny, considering that I've been taking Web Design as a subject for the past two years. I don't actually do any work in that class, though. It's like my second free subject. When we have work to do, I just ask my teacher and he basically tells me exactly what to do. Um, tangent, ok... Anyway, I'm going to take another look at the pre-set templates and see if I can find something a little more exciting. I guess I'll just have to play around with it a little and see what I can work out, and what I come up with. I might need to wait a bit though, until I have enough time to really get stuck in and focus on it. I have mid-term exams coming up in two weeks, so from now on I'll be super busy and nerdy with studying... Or at least, I'll pretend that's what I'm doing. I've never really been that good at studying, but I surprisingly manage to get by with pretty good grades. Maybe just for now I'll try to find a pre-set template that's a little more interesting than this, that I'll use temporarily.
Also, one of these days I'll figure out how add photos to these posts... I bet it's probably not even that difficult, I'm just an idiot. I guess I'll do that at the same time as the layout shizz. At least this way, it gives me enough time to figure out what to post photos of. I'm not really very confident with myself at all, so I wouldn't really want to post photos of my face... And my clothes aren't really cool enough to do outfit posts. I'm just generally quite plain and average. Ahh, well. I'll figure it out. I just feel like having photos will make my blog at least a little more interesting. And I need all the interesting I can get. ><;;

Writing this post is making me feel really dizzy. I haven't been feeling so good for the last two days, and I'm off school today. I probably shouldn't be using my computer at all, I knoooow. But I'm so bored~ There isn't even any entertaining trash on E! channel. Just E! News and boring THS junk.

Oh, I ordered more things on Sunday! Well, this time it was just one thing. I ordered it from Rakuten again, this time from a seller/store called Mansaiya. Whenever I search for things on Rakuten, this seller always comes up. I guess that's because I mostly search for clothes like SUPER LOVERS. And, they ship to my country, so I don't have to go through a shopping service. Again, I ordered from here because it worked out to be much cheaper than CDJapan.
BUT, I'm not going to lie, I'm getting a little worried about both of my recent orders. I ordered from the SUPER LOVERS online/Rakuten shop on Thursday last week. I did get the automatic confirmation email and everything, but it's now Tuesday afternoon and I haven't heard anything more from them. They haven't emailed me saying that it's been posted to my Tenso address, and Tenso certainly haven't received it yet. I'm hoping that it's something to do with the fact that I payed by credit card, and that it will take a while for the payment to go through. Then once they get my payment, they'll post my order.
I have similar concerns for my Mansaiya order, although I did only order on Sunday, so I'm not as concerned. But still, I haven't heard anything from this store either... I'm not sure what to do. How long should I wait until I email the sellers? I dunno maaaaan. I guess I'm just over-thinking and such because I've never ordered from here before. It'll be fine. I'm sure it will be fine. Whoo~

In other *fangirl* news, FUCKING YES GOTCHAROCKA NICONICO. When I saw the announcement   that they were going to be on a live stream, I so nearly cried. I'm so happy, I don't even care that it's way late here and I'm sick as fuck. After missing their last one, because I'm the biggest retard ever and got the timing/dates all wrong, I was so heart shattered, and I was beginning to think that I missed the only chance.
I actually started this before the broadcast was on... it was done with purpose, though, because I wanted to be able to fangirl after watching it. So, here goes...
OMFGSAFSDGDFG. THEY'RE SO PERFECT. I really, really loved watching them. It doesn't matter in the slightest that I couldn't understand a word. Just seeing them all laugh and smile made me so, so happy. They're a really great bunch of guys. You know how I like to ramble on about bands, and their band dynamic? Well, GOTCHAROCKA's band dynamic is so out of this world. They are perfect together as a band. I have no worries about them at all, I feel that they're going to be together for a long time. Ahhh I'm still buzzing about seeing them. I feel all warm and fuzzy inside. This morning I was listening to them, and going through Toya's blog images, and I actually felt like I was going to cry. Happy tears, not sad tears! I was just like... I love these guys so fucking much. I am so thankful to Jun for bringing me to GOTCHAROCKA. It was also really great being able to chat with the WARPS/ROCKAS again... although, it wasn't quite the same as Jun's old Niconicos... oh well, it was something. And for that I'm extremely grateful~!
Also, I realised how much I love and adore Toya! I mean, I already new I loved him, but wow... He's so gorgeous and precious and perfect! He's way up there man, but of course, Jun is always number one in my heart~ Alright, fangirl spazz end.

Alright, now I really feel like junk. Time for a cup of tea then a nap~

NP - 4 minutes for you by GOTCHAROCKA

Visual Kei and Pokemon are Japanese traditions!

Huh. Well. It's been a whole year. What's up, blogface?
I think, it would be fair to say, that I am entirely shit at continuing with a blog. Or sticking at anything, for that matter. I always have been. Like, whenever I tried to keep a diary as a kid, because and all my friends said they did, I would always give up after just a few days. Well, what're you gonna do. This has been something of my favourite expression lately. I should find a more motivational one, I think...

So! A whole year. That's a hell of a long time. And I sure have changed. At least, I think I have. What's new with me? What has happened in my life in this past year? I think I'll start with the thing that I think is most important to me. I fell in love with Visual Kei. It started almost exactly a year ago, when I was herp-derping around on the internet. I already liked a few J-Rock artists, but I kept seeing these terms "visual" and "oshare" popping up. So, me being curious George, I looked them up. The first image that I clicked on was a picture of Takeru of SuG. It was a photo from their single 小悪魔Sparkling (Koakuma Sparkling). I don't want to sound like a cliche douchebag here, but it legitimately was love at first sight. I had to know more. I looked into SuG first, completely adored the music, and well, the rest goes from there. SuG are still one of my favourite bands. They will always hold a special place for me. However, about six months ago, I found my absolute favourite band, bias, and obsession. LM.C, with their song PUNKY ❤ HEART, which is still one of my absolute favourites of theirs. I'm not even going to try to put into words how much they mean to me. Because I honestly can't. And I know, it hasn't even been that long, and I do feel like a bit of a noob fan sometimes, but that doesn't matter. I just can't help but love them. Actually, I feel like a pretty noob fan to Visual Kei in general. Sometimes that gets me down. I think, "If only I had found Visual Kei sooner..." But, again. What're you gonna do. I've found it now, and that's what is important.

Oh shit, I made a whole paragraph just on that. Alright, well, I'll try and sum up the rest of what happened. I became even more obsessed with Japan than I already was, becoming extremely interested in Japanese street fashion and subcultures. I became an h.NAOTO fangirl, and its my dream to own three articles of clothing of his, at least. I bought a whole bunch of manga. I also bought quite a fair amount of anime, including the Naruto complete series box set. I've dyed my hair at least five times, right now it's half bleached and half black (I was trying to do something like Utahiroba Jun from Golden Bomber. It didn't entirely work out, but it's alright). I haven't gained or lost any weight, which I find both pleasing and frustrating. Narwhals. I've been going to see a dermatologist, and now my skin is actually pretty good. I'm now in my last year of high school, and in all honesty, I'm bugging out. I've lost and made friends, but let's not get into all that bullshit. One of my three cats died, which was sad, but she was a bit of a wild cat, and she prefered to spend her time outside away from people, so I feel like I never really got emotionally attached to her. And actually, that's about all the remotely interesting things I can think of. Other than that, I've sort of just been standing back and letting the world go by.

I think I'm done for the day. I honestly don't know what inspired me to write here again. But I do know that I have a hell of a lot of homework to do. I have to read four novels in two weeks, which may not sound like much, but I'm not a very fast reader, and I do have something of a life, i.e. spending all my time fangirling.

Oh, here are some things of mine. I like getting new followers, and, for the most part, I always follow back.
Twitter - https://twitter.com/#!/_automaticeyes
Pinterest - http://pinterest.com/wonderholic/

Ah, and one more thing! The title of this post is a quote, from Takeru of SuG.

Now playing: LM.C - BABY TALK