I Suck At Being A Girl~

I don't know how to do it very well. Today, while I was out with a friend, I asked her if she could teach me about makeup. I mean, I do wear it, but not a lot, and I'm pretty clueless about it. I sort of just make it up as I go along (hurrhurr, you see what I did thar). So anyway, we went to a pharmacy and she got her colours matched for foundation. So I wanted to get it done too. Turns out my face is so naturally pale, that the most affordable brand, Maybelline, doesn't have any products that are light enough for my skin. So I was recommended a slightly more expensive option from L'Oreal, which I think I'll go back and buy soon. But even so, it was the lightest possible colour of the brand. xD

She also taught me about things like brushes/sponges, how to apply things, and what looks good together. You know, that sort of thing. She's pretty knowledgeable about makeup. She helped me decide what eyeliner and mascara I should get. I already have those things, but they're pretty basic and I'm running out, so I thought I'd step it up. I'm looking to buy some fake eyelashes, but so far I haven't found any particularly awesome. Most of them are just like, natural, or slightly exaggerated natural. Boring shit like that, you know? That's probably because my whole country is boring. JK love you New Zealand.

WHALES.

Damn it, I hate not having a case for my iPod! It makes me so nervous. I ordered a case off eBay over a week ago, but it hasn't arrived yet, so I've decided that I'll give it 3 weeks (in working days, so 15 working days), and then I'll contact the seller. I hope it gets here soon. It's a Hello Kitty case! It's white, with an interchangeable bow. I think it comes with a pink bow and a red bow. It's pretty simple, but I think it's really cute.

I'm having even more music-buying issues. I've been watching the PV for Brave Sword by PIECE, and just today I listened to a preview of the song on the album. And now I want the album even more! But seriously, they're charging MORE than the limited edition version of Piko's new album (just to use as a comparison), but their album is basically a regular edition. It has 13 tracks, and yes, it does come with a DVD, but that only has one PV on it. It seems like a little bit much, doesn't it? But I really want to support them, I'm worried if they don't get enough support that they'll disband... Well, who needs limbs, anyway?

I'm gonna play the Sims now. This is how I celebrate that my midterm exams are over, and ended without any major dilemmas... whoop~

NP - Mugen no Sora e by PIECE

New Nickname~

A couple of weeks ago, my Japanese student and her sister were thinking of a Japanese name for me and my friend. I think mine ended up as Misa. Being a Death Note fan, I was more than happy with this, haha. And plus, it sort of sounds like the nickname for my real name anyway; Melissa = Missy = Misa. It works, right? I'm just wondering if I should start calling myself that. Obviously not in real life, but on here, in this world they call Le Internet. I think I will, it's much cuter than my actual name...
Oh, and I don't remember what my friend got. I don't think they have though of one fore her yet. xD

DAMMIT, CDJAPAN, TAKE ALL MY LIMBS. I JUST NEED THE MUSIC.

Sorry for that outburst. That's pretty much been my entire thought process for the past week. Sigh. Seriously though, I really am considering buying Piko's new album and ACE's new album. If I buy them soon, I can get a poster with each. But, the catch. Including shipping (the cheapest kind), it would cost me NZ$120. That's almost all of the money I have saved right now. Gone, on just two CDs. Is it worth it? I'm going back and fourth, like, one minute I'll be thinking it's totally worth it, then the next minute I'm like, GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF YOU CAN'T SPEND THAT MUCH MONEY ON TWO ALBUMS. I'm so fucking conflicted. Someone help me, I need some kind of divine inspiration~

Recently, I've decided that I want to get a Totoro tattoo. I know, I know. "That's not very original" herpderp, newsflash, neither are flowers or feathers or stars or birds or meaningful quotes about hope or whatever else people get as tattoos. Idgaf what I'm told, I adore Totoro, I adore Miyazki-san and I adore Studio Ghibli, so I'm going to do it. I think it will make a cute first tattoo. And It's only going to be small, so no big deal.

Also on the note of deciding things I that I want to get in the hopes of making my lame, derpy, totally un-cute self at least a little bit cuter. I really want Japanese fake nails. You know, the kind that Kyary Pamyu Pamyu has! They're so adorable. I'm going to go to the city this weekend and see if there's any places that would sell/do them here. Otherwise I'll have to find them online or something. Fooh~

That's all. I actually had a little more to write than I though. Meh. (￣^￣)ゞ


NP - With Me by Blu-BiLLioN

Tonight Tonight

Listening to Golden Bomber always puts me in a good mood. So does watching videos of them on YouTube. They're all so fucking weird. Of course, Kenji is probably the weirdest, followed closely by Kirisho. Man, they're a great bunch. <3

I really, really hate not having a job. Or I just hate not having money. It seems like lately it's been release after new release, for so many bands that I love. New albums from Piko, Zuck, ACE, PIECE, Paradeis, BugLug. Singles from GALEYD, GOTCHAROCKA, Vistlip, SID, Mix Speaker's,Inc., and again BugLug. Live DVDs from SuG and LM.C, plus CDJapan has more of Golden Bombers Golden Best Type B, which I really wanted. I'm so upset, because I know that there is no way I'm going to be able to buy all of them. I'm only going to be able to get like, two or three, so I have to choose. I don't wanna chooooose! I can't do eeeht. Also, I don't just want music. I'm desperately in need of a wardrobe update. And I have a stunning lack of accessories and shit. Some of the stores that I want this stuff from don't ship internationally, so I'd have to pay the special request fee on CDJapan. On top of all that, whatever I buy, there is going to be a shipping charge, which is always expensive. Holy shit. Excuse me while I go drown my sorrows in ice cream.

I really love pineapple. But only in a can. Is that weird? I guess so.

It's getting really cold where I live, because it's almost winter. June-August are the wintery months here, and I'm really looking forward to it. I hate summer, I hate the sun. I don't have any summer style clothes either, all my stuff is more suited to winter weather. WHOA, step back! Did you see that alliteration? Completely unintentional, I swear. Anyway, winter. I'm excited. Bring on the rain.

Lalala, sorry. This was a boring one. I just felt like having a vent/cry about how I want to buy all the things but at the moments I can't buy any of the things. Mla. ;___;

NP - Ai Nante Iraneiyo by Golden Bomber 

How Does This Keep Happening?

I was going to spend all evening playing the Sims (yeah I know, mla), but I got distracted and ended up spending the whole evening looking at yaoi blogs. Seriously, that shit is addicting! I don't actually watch or read any series, and I don't plan on it for the moment, but really. If I happen to stumble upon a yaoi blog, I find it almost impossible to tear my eyes away from the screen. But to be honest, I feel like I'm not old enough to be looking at it. I always wonder, what is the average age for a yaoi fan? Is it normal/okay for me to be into it at 17? Well, no, cause I'm not actually into it, I just happen to look at some pictures and stuff that I find unintentionally every now and then and... this is how it starts, isn't it? =3=
I just want someone to tell me that it's okay for me to look at this stuff, and not find it gross. I need someone to tell me that it's normal, or at the very least not bad...
And there's no way in hell I'm ever going to tell my parents or real life friends about it. I'd probably end up with even less friends than the small amount I currently have. And my parents finding out? Oh god, the awkward! It makes me cringe just thinking about it. I actually do like light shonen-ai, and I wouldn't feel awkward admitting that. But yaoi is a whole new level, and I just... I don't know. I'll figure it out. I'll just keep getting my harmless, little, once-in-a-while fixes. I don't think I'm going to turn into a hardcore yaoi fangirl any time soon, so I guess no worries for now.
-Is now desperately hoping that nobody I know irl ever sees this-

AND NOW, CHILDREN. I will actually go and play the Sims for real. And, if anyone is wondering, I mean the Sims 2. Yes, I have the Sims 3, but I have that on the family mac, and I don't like the way it looks on my laptop, so I play Sims 2 on my laptop. I actually still like playing the Sims 2. Sometimes the Sims 3 gets boring, because I don't have enough expansions yet //craicraitoopoor

NP - Ai no Kusari by FEST VAINQUEUR

I Wish I Had Never Met You~

I've just recently discovered the band Dazzle Vision, and even though I haven't listened to them a lot yet, I already know that they're going to be a favourite. The singer is a girl, and she has a really sweet singing voice, but what I really love is her death voice. I find it so shocking and amazing that such intense growls can come from such a cute girl! I guess that's why their latest album is called Shocking Loud Voice. I'm seriously considering buying it, but I'm still thinking about it, because there is lots of other albums that I want to buy. Like
Called≠Plan's mini album NO Yancha!! NO Live!!. They're way up there in my long list of favourites, but I think I might wait until they release a full album. I also really want PIECE's new album BRAVE HEARTS, but it's soooooo expensive. It costs more than Golden Bomber albums. That's saying something. Being a visual kei fan sure is expensive. I really should think about looking for a job. =3=


In other news, I finally have a new iPod~ I'd had the same 4GB, lime green Nano for six years. I'm surprised it's even lasted this long. But it was starting to fall apart and I could only fit 400 songs on it and blahblahblah... So after a lot of careful consideration, I decided to go with the 64GB iPod touch. I know, 64GB is a lot. But I didn't want to take any chances, I want this iPod to last as long as possible. Plus, if it's touch, you have to take into consideration things like videos and photos and apps. That stuff takes up space too, so, I thought it's better to be safe than sorry. And I have to say, so far I love it. It's so exciting, technology these days! I talk like I'm an old person.. I'm only 17! 


I have mid-term exams starting this Friday. And fuck, look at me. When I should be studying and working on assessments that are due then, I'm sitting here derping around on the internet, writing shit that nobody cares about. Failure, here I come...


NP - mr.FIREBIRD by THE KIDDIE

Seventeen Ain't So Sweet

Damn right, I hate the number seventeen. But alas, there isn't a lot I can do about it. Today, the 12th May, I am seventeen. HBD bro.

On the bright side, this means that it's only one more year until I plan to go to Japan. I know that I definitely go to Japan sometime in my life, and I've always planned that the first time I want to go is when I'm eighteen. I don't know why. It just seems like a good age to go. And no, I haven't even started planning yet. I don't think it makes sense to plan quite this far in advance. Especially considering I don't even have a job yet, and I'm still in high school, until the end of this year. So I'll start planning a little closer to the time.

Ahh, I had to go and do something halfway through this and now I've lost my flow. I'll add more later. Probably. Maybe. Maybe not. Nahh, I guess not. We'll see.

NP - Toy Soldier by SuG

Look At All The Fucks I Give~

I always find myself with something that I want to write about here, but at the most awkward and inconvenient times. Like, when I'm walking home from school, or when I'm in the shower. There's no computer there! And I don't have an iPhone or anything technologically advanced like that, so I can't write it down. Then, when I'm finally in a position to be able to write something, I can't be bothered anymore. Damn I'm lazy. I guess it makes sense that one of my absolute favourite animals is the sloth. Seriously, those things are so frickin' adorable.

April! It was a really good month. Really, it was great for me. I guess I'll sum it up.
- LM.C's new album STRONG POP was released (of which I own limited A and B)
- SuG's new album LOLLIPOP KINGDOM was released (I have the 3939 Collectors Box)
- I got my copy of THE KIDDIE's new album MA★PIECE, which was actually released in March, but I had it shipped with SuG's album.
- I got a couple of new SEXPOT ReVeNGe things
- I got two h.NAOTO things! A really awesome h.ANARCHY cardigan, and a pair of Hangry&Angry shorts. Seriously, this made me so happy, I'm actually in love with h.NAOTO. Hirooka-san is such a genius with clothes.
- It was my mums birthday~ (I don't know how this was good for me, but y'know)
- I got the grades that I was aiming for in all my assessments! Whooooop~
- The term 1 holiday was within April
- Parent-Teacher interviews... all my teachers love me hehe (God knows why, I'm actually a terrible student)

I'm sure there are other things, but I can't remember them right now. I guess it's kind of late to talk about what happened in April now, anyway. We're almost half-way through May.

Lalalaherpaderpa. I completely forgot what else I was going to say for this. So I think it's best I leave it at that, otherwise I'm gonna implode my brain trying to remember what I had plannned.
Byebye~

NP - Bara Bara? by DEVI+TEC

Roses Wither Away

Maybe it seems like an unusual thing for someone like me to be obsessed with, but I'm actually in love with Andrew Lloyd Webber's musical CATS. I have been for as long as I can remember. I think I watched it for the first time when I was about three or four. It was my favourite thing on earth, I loved it to death. And even now, at sixteen going on seventeen, it's still so special to me. Yeah, I don't talk about it very often, especially not to my friends, but I actually know all the words to every song. I've watched my DVD of it more times than I can count. I've probably watched it the same number of times as my Howl's Moving Castle (my legit favourite movie ever), if not more. It's just so beautifully done, it's magical. As I get older my appreciation for it continues to grow. It was actually my inspiration to start dancing, I'd say, although I don't dance anymore. I haven't for a few years now, and I don't plan on starting again. It took me about ten years of dancing to realise that I just wasn't that good, especially in the later years. It used to be my dream to be in a production of CATS, but I can settle for sitting in the audience. I have seen a production of it, but it was only by a New Zealand company, so it was a little small scale. It was still pretty good though, and seeing all the scenes and hearing all the songs play out in front of me was amazing. I don't actually know what inspired me to write about this. I think it's because I haven't watched it in a long time, so maybe I'm having withdrawl symptoms. I really want to watch it now. I know what I'm doing with my Friday night!

So today I was thinking about the past month, April, and I realised that it was actually a pretty damn good month for me. Buuuut, I can't be bothered talking about it now, so I'll save that for next time.

I have food in the oven, super comfy pajama-like clothes on, a fluffy blanket, and a hot cup of tea. I'm ready, bring it on. I love you, weekend. <3

NP - Precious Heart by GALEYD