How Does This Keep Happening?

I was going to spend all evening playing the Sims (yeah I know, mla), but I got distracted and ended up spending the whole evening looking at yaoi blogs. Seriously, that shit is addicting! I don't actually watch or read any series, and I don't plan on it for the moment, but really. If I happen to stumble upon a yaoi blog, I find it almost impossible to tear my eyes away from the screen. But to be honest, I feel like I'm not old enough to be looking at it. I always wonder, what is the average age for a yaoi fan? Is it normal/okay for me to be into it at 17? Well, no, cause I'm not actually into it, I just happen to look at some pictures and stuff that I find unintentionally every now and then and... this is how it starts, isn't it? =3=
I just want someone to tell me that it's okay for me to look at this stuff, and not find it gross. I need someone to tell me that it's normal, or at the very least not bad...
And there's no way in hell I'm ever going to tell my parents or real life friends about it. I'd probably end up with even less friends than the small amount I currently have. And my parents finding out? Oh god, the awkward! It makes me cringe just thinking about it. I actually do like light shonen-ai, and I wouldn't feel awkward admitting that. But yaoi is a whole new level, and I just... I don't know. I'll figure it out. I'll just keep getting my harmless, little, once-in-a-while fixes. I don't think I'm going to turn into a hardcore yaoi fangirl any time soon, so I guess no worries for now.
-Is now desperately hoping that nobody I know irl ever sees this-

AND NOW, CHILDREN. I will actually go and play the Sims for real. And, if anyone is wondering, I mean the Sims 2. Yes, I have the Sims 3, but I have that on the family mac, and I don't like the way it looks on my laptop, so I play Sims 2 on my laptop. I actually still like playing the Sims 2. Sometimes the Sims 3 gets boring, because I don't have enough expansions yet //craicraitoopoor

NP - Ai no Kusari by FEST VAINQUEUR