Oh my god, I know it's such a fucking cheesy ending to the story but holy shit, man. The last chapter of Absolute Boyfriend... my feels //uglycry
I actually finished off the series just over a week ago. It was such a bitter-sweet ending! I still don't know how I feel about it. In a way it was so typically shojo, but then it also wasn't. Like, she didn't end up with the guy exactly... Sort of. It's an open ending, right. I don't think that Night will ever get fixed, and Riiko will slowly move on. I think that eventually Riiko and Soshi would end up together, even though deep down Riiko will never get over Night. Ugh, Night was so sweet. Poor Riiko, though... I felt so sorry for her! But I guess in the end it was for the best... I mean, they couldn't have been together forever. It wouldn't have worked. Old lady Riiko and eternally youthful Night? Nahh.
Wow, I feel really weird, talking about this like it actually happened/will happen. Sorry for being weird! I just get really sucked into my manga, particularly if it's shojo. Ehehe... ^^;;
ERMAHGERD I CAN'T BELIEVE I KEEP FORGETTING TO MENTION THIS.
I got a Gachapin kigurumi whooooo~! //derpdance
It seemed that Akinai Store restocked their Gachapin kigus the day after I wrote about how they were out of stock. Such an awesome coincidence! So I snapped one up pretty much straight away, and it arrived at my house exactly a week after I ordered it. I do just have a couple of things to say about, unfortunately they aren't all positive, but overall I'm very happy with it.
First and foremost, I want to talk about the material used. I knew when I ordered it that it wouldn't be a thick fleece one, because the only option was for a terry cloth one. And I knew that it would be quite thin because the material changes seasonally for some kigus (it's summer in Japan, so the material would be thinner). However, I didn't realise that it was going to be QUITE so thin. I've only worn it for less than half a day, because I'm so nervous that it's going to unravel or get riddled with holes. I swear I even saw threads starting to pull. It makes the price I paid for it seem a little bit unreasonable...
Another slight problem I have with it is his energy balls! The image on Akinai's webstore shows that these are actual balls, but on mine they are just slightly 3D printed on green spots (sorry I'm not sure how to explain it better!). I was a little disappointed with this, but then again the image does seem like it would be a fleece version of the kigu. I wish Akinai sold a fleece version too... maybe they will in winter? I'd totally consider buying a fleece one too. Then I'd have one for winter and one for summer! Sorry, that got a little off topic!
However, these issues aren't with Akinai Store, they're more to do with the manufacturer. Even so, it's still lovely! I'm so stoked to have it. I'm going to wear it to Armageddon Expo in October this year. Armageddon is the closest my lame country gets to any kind of cool expo/convention for nerdy/geeky things. I like going because there is always a Madman stall, so I can get cheap manga and anime. There are also a few cute nicknacks if you know where to look. There is a lot of vide
I'm going to see the Ghibli movie From Up On Poppy Hill tomorrow, for the International Film Festival! I'm excited! Last year we went to see Arrietty. It was the first time I'd seen a Ghibli movie with English subs rather than dubbed. I quite liked it that way, and this one will be the same, so I'm glad. And it seems like such a sweet movie!
Today I went shopping with my mum, homestay and friend/brother's girlfriend. We went to a lot of places, and I bought quite a few things, but I think I'll talk about my haul next time! This entry is getting long and I'm suuuuuper tired. I want a foot bath!
NP - EVEN IF I DIE, TOMORROW IS COMING by Lustknot. (I feel like Lustknot is yelling at me with this title)
Friday, July 27, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
ERMAHGERD~
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK, VISUAL KEI WORLD.
What a shitty way to start the day. I wake up to the news that LILT will be disbanding. Fuck. I love LILT. Seriously, the amount of visual kei disbandments this years is getting waaaaaay insane. I want to support the newer bands and stuff, but they keep dropping like flies. So now I'm left thinking, what's the fucking point? And I don't want to overly throw myself into supporting older bands either, because let's be honest, nothing lasts forever. I just don't know how to deal with this. Now I'm just sitting here thinking about any other bands that could disband soon... I'm particularly worried about PIECE. I haven't heard anything from them recently. In fact, I hardly hear anything from them at all. I really don't know where they stand in terms of popularity, but I don't think they're all that popular. If they disband... tables will be flipped and coffee mugs will fly. Along with rage tears and then curling up in a corner to ugly sob forever.
ALTHOUGH. In all honesty, I knew something was up with LILT. Somehow. A week or so ago I was thinking about how I hadn't heard anything from them since their last release. I dunno, I just had a bit of a bad feeling. And now this. MAYBE I CURSED IT. NOOO, M'SRRY~! ;____; I really hope to see the LILT members in other projects though. Particularly Tsukasa. I'm not sure why, but he's my LILT bias. Also Rubia, he's fucking adorable and talented. You know, all the members of LILT are extremely talented. I know Rei will be fine. He has mad skill.
I bought a galaxy cat shirt of eBay yesterday! After a while of staring at it wistfully I finally decided to go ahead and buy it~ I'm very excited, I haven't really gotten new clothes in a while, and I love getting packages in the mail! It's so exciting!
Speaking of clothes, CDJapan recently started stocking some Broken Doll things. I really want to buy something or theirs, it's such a fun, creative and unique brand. And everything is handmade! So next time I order from CDJapan I'm going to buy an accessory of Broken Doll. I want to start some kind of collection of odds and ends from Broken Doll, but I'm afraid I probably won't be able to afford it... aha... I would also like to buy their music CDs too, but I really can't afford that right now, so I'll just keep watching their YouTube videos. The Broken Doll band is just as fun as the brand, so check them out!
Hmm, wearing fake eyelashes is going to be an expensive hobby, isn't it. I started wearing them a few weeks ago, and I absolutely love them. I never planned to wear them to school everyday, but it turned out that I ended up hating my face without them. But I go to school five days a week, and I usually go out for at least one day in the weekend. I really don't think I can afford to wear them every day, unfortunately. So I'll wear them once or twice during the week, and then whenever I go out during the weekend. The kind that I have are Eyemazing x Kyary Pamyu Pamyu ones - I forgot what their name/number is, but the ones that come in the blue packaging. They are AMAZING, seriously highly recommended.
And again, I'm watching Regular Show as I write this. So I think I'll finish up here. It's too distracting. Byebye~
NP - Hikaru Sekai by REALies
What a shitty way to start the day. I wake up to the news that LILT will be disbanding. Fuck. I love LILT. Seriously, the amount of visual kei disbandments this years is getting waaaaaay insane. I want to support the newer bands and stuff, but they keep dropping like flies. So now I'm left thinking, what's the fucking point? And I don't want to overly throw myself into supporting older bands either, because let's be honest, nothing lasts forever. I just don't know how to deal with this. Now I'm just sitting here thinking about any other bands that could disband soon... I'm particularly worried about PIECE. I haven't heard anything from them recently. In fact, I hardly hear anything from them at all. I really don't know where they stand in terms of popularity, but I don't think they're all that popular. If they disband... tables will be flipped and coffee mugs will fly. Along with rage tears and then curling up in a corner to ugly sob forever.
ALTHOUGH. In all honesty, I knew something was up with LILT. Somehow. A week or so ago I was thinking about how I hadn't heard anything from them since their last release. I dunno, I just had a bit of a bad feeling. And now this. MAYBE I CURSED IT. NOOO, M'SRRY~! ;____; I really hope to see the LILT members in other projects though. Particularly Tsukasa. I'm not sure why, but he's my LILT bias. Also Rubia, he's fucking adorable and talented. You know, all the members of LILT are extremely talented. I know Rei will be fine. He has mad skill.
I bought a galaxy cat shirt of eBay yesterday! After a while of staring at it wistfully I finally decided to go ahead and buy it~ I'm very excited, I haven't really gotten new clothes in a while, and I love getting packages in the mail! It's so exciting!
Speaking of clothes, CDJapan recently started stocking some Broken Doll things. I really want to buy something or theirs, it's such a fun, creative and unique brand. And everything is handmade! So next time I order from CDJapan I'm going to buy an accessory of Broken Doll. I want to start some kind of collection of odds and ends from Broken Doll, but I'm afraid I probably won't be able to afford it... aha... I would also like to buy their music CDs too, but I really can't afford that right now, so I'll just keep watching their YouTube videos. The Broken Doll band is just as fun as the brand, so check them out!
Hmm, wearing fake eyelashes is going to be an expensive hobby, isn't it. I started wearing them a few weeks ago, and I absolutely love them. I never planned to wear them to school everyday, but it turned out that I ended up hating my face without them. But I go to school five days a week, and I usually go out for at least one day in the weekend. I really don't think I can afford to wear them every day, unfortunately. So I'll wear them once or twice during the week, and then whenever I go out during the weekend. The kind that I have are Eyemazing x Kyary Pamyu Pamyu ones - I forgot what their name/number is, but the ones that come in the blue packaging. They are AMAZING, seriously highly recommended.
And again, I'm watching Regular Show as I write this. So I think I'll finish up here. It's too distracting. Byebye~
NP - Hikaru Sekai by REALies
Friday, July 20, 2012
HEYYEYAAEYAAAEYAEYAA
WHAT'S GOIN' ON?
PLEASE tell me I'm not the only one who watches that video on YouTube at least once a day. I need my daily dose. How about you?
In all seriousness though, that is relevant to what I want to talk about. I'm just thinking about the recent announcement from Called≠Plan. This is what I read yesterday, from fuckyeahcalledplan.tumblr.com;
PLEASE tell me I'm not the only one who watches that video on YouTube at least once a day. I need my daily dose. How about you?
In all seriousness though, that is relevant to what I want to talk about. I'm just thinking about the recent announcement from Called≠Plan. This is what I read yesterday, from fuckyeahcalledplan.tumblr.com;
"Thank you for always supporting Called≠Plan.
With the one-man tour, “Yozolion,” which begins today, the four-member band, Called≠Plan, will cease activity.
Starting from September, vocal Yuuto, guitar Otoha, guitar Rei, bass syu, and an additional new member will join to continue activity together.
The new member will be announced some time in the future, so until August 26th, please continue to support the current members in their activities.
Called≠Plan
Planet CHILD Music"
Planet CHILD Music"
So I read the first two lines and had the biggest heart attack moment. I love this band, I honestly don't know how I would deal if they disbanded. But I'm a little confused... From my understanding of this, what's going to happen is: The four guys (Yuuto, Otoha, Rei and Syu) will do their tour under the band name Called≠Plan. After that, they will change their band name and get a new band member. They will no longer be called Called≠Plan, but they are all still going to be in the same band, with an additional member. Is that right? If it is, then thank the lord, they are going to stay together as a band! I don't know why they had to freak everyone out with the whole "cease activity" thing. It's really misleading. They're just changing the band name... but I guess they'll change things up with their music and look and such. Ah well, I look forward to it. As long as they're all still together I'm happy. Seriously, I feel like these guys were made to be in a band together. The dynamic, everything just... works with them.
AHHHH I just remembered. I was waiting for them to release a full album, so I never bought any of their singles or mini album. Booo! ><
The type of ZUCK's new album that I wanted is out of stock at CDJapan. That sucks. Would any of the other stores, like Cool Japan Store or Yes Asia have it? I guess I'll check them out. I really am serious about buying the album. I worry about ZUCK sometimes... And their music is fantastic. I know it's going to be a really great album, I just need a little more time to save up for it, that's all. Although, the type that I wanted was the one with my least favourite cover art... But I don't base it on cover art. I wanted type A, the one with the photobook and DVD. I guess I really should have got in sooner. I think I'll probably still buy one of the other types if I can't find A, anyway. I wish I could support the bands I listen to more...
Damn I forgot what else I had to say. This always happens. I need to fix this problem I have. Meh. I have a pile of manga to read for the weekend, so I guess I'll start on that. Maybe my thoughts will come flowing back. Or not. Herrrrrp.
NP - Иatural Pop by Orange Range
AHHHH I just remembered. I was waiting for them to release a full album, so I never bought any of their singles or mini album. Booo! ><
The type of ZUCK's new album that I wanted is out of stock at CDJapan. That sucks. Would any of the other stores, like Cool Japan Store or Yes Asia have it? I guess I'll check them out. I really am serious about buying the album. I worry about ZUCK sometimes... And their music is fantastic. I know it's going to be a really great album, I just need a little more time to save up for it, that's all. Although, the type that I wanted was the one with my least favourite cover art... But I don't base it on cover art. I wanted type A, the one with the photobook and DVD. I guess I really should have got in sooner. I think I'll probably still buy one of the other types if I can't find A, anyway. I wish I could support the bands I listen to more...
Damn I forgot what else I had to say. This always happens. I need to fix this problem I have. Meh. I have a pile of manga to read for the weekend, so I guess I'll start on that. Maybe my thoughts will come flowing back. Or not. Herrrrrp.
NP - Иatural Pop by Orange Range
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Lieutenant Riggs Can Totally Fix It~
Why do I always get the desire to blog when I'm watching Regular Show? I guess all it's random gets my creative juices flowing... Eww, I hate that expression, why did I use it? Creative juices. Am I the only one who finds it... gross? Well, I suppose I do have a bit of a dirty mind. I swear, my mind can make anything sexual. I don't do it on purpose, it just happens! Don't smite me, I really am a sweet, pure person....! I think. Maybe. I guess not. Whaaaaat?
Oh! I've been meaning to mention this for a while now. My manga collection (the ones I actually ownlol) is up to 99 COPIES. That means the next one I buy will be my 100th manga! Wow~ Ok, so 100 manga may not be all that many to a lot of people. But I'm sorry, it's actually a pretty big deal for me. I just think it's a special milestone in my foreveralonealwaysobsessed life. So I've been trying to think of what I want my 100th manga to be. My dream 100th manga would be the Fullmetal Alchemist or Death Note box set, because they're both some of my all time favourites. But right now I can't afford that, there's no way I can stretch my money like that. So I think I might make it the first volume of Black Butler, because I've been wanting it for a while now, and Black Butler is also one of my absolute favourites. I might hold off buying manga until I can afford the Fullmetal Alchemist or Death Note set though... they're really quite beautiful. *O* And actually pretty good value for money!
I started back at school this week wahhhhhh! So far I have been managing to get up at 7am. But it still sucks. I really hate school. It's such a drag. Ohh, I'm turning into Shikamaru! None of my teachers have been cutting us students any slack, though! They're like, Oh it's the first day back? Have all this new course content and this homework assessment and hey how about an in-class essay this Friday! Oh well. It's Friday tomorrow. Yes, I do actually have to do an essay tomorrow for Literature class. And a topic test for History. But I think I'll manage~
Hmm my writing is really ugly right now... I don't like the way I've written this blog. I think I had more things to say, but I really can't remember. My brain is just mush right now, I'm exhausted. I feel like I have whacked out poo brain. Thank you Adventure Time for the diagnosis~
*EDIT* I just noticed that people from my country have been viewing my blog. That makes me both extremely happy and extremely nervous. It makes me nervous because... what if they're people I know in real life? THEY CAN'T SEE THIS BLOG. But then happy, because it may well not be people I actually know. It might be people from my country who actually have the same interests as me, and that's awesome, because such people are few and far between. I would love to meet more Japan/visual kei fans who live in New Zealand!
NP - Guillotine by BugLug
Oh! I've been meaning to mention this for a while now. My manga collection (the ones I actually ownlol) is up to 99 COPIES. That means the next one I buy will be my 100th manga! Wow~ Ok, so 100 manga may not be all that many to a lot of people. But I'm sorry, it's actually a pretty big deal for me. I just think it's a special milestone in my foreveralonealwaysobsessed life. So I've been trying to think of what I want my 100th manga to be. My dream 100th manga would be the Fullmetal Alchemist or Death Note box set, because they're both some of my all time favourites. But right now I can't afford that, there's no way I can stretch my money like that. So I think I might make it the first volume of Black Butler, because I've been wanting it for a while now, and Black Butler is also one of my absolute favourites. I might hold off buying manga until I can afford the Fullmetal Alchemist or Death Note set though... they're really quite beautiful. *O* And actually pretty good value for money!
I started back at school this week wahhhhhh! So far I have been managing to get up at 7am. But it still sucks. I really hate school. It's such a drag. Ohh, I'm turning into Shikamaru! None of my teachers have been cutting us students any slack, though! They're like, Oh it's the first day back? Have all this new course content and this homework assessment and hey how about an in-class essay this Friday! Oh well. It's Friday tomorrow. Yes, I do actually have to do an essay tomorrow for Literature class. And a topic test for History. But I think I'll manage~
Hmm my writing is really ugly right now... I don't like the way I've written this blog. I think I had more things to say, but I really can't remember. My brain is just mush right now, I'm exhausted. I feel like I have whacked out poo brain. Thank you Adventure Time for the diagnosis~
*EDIT* I just noticed that people from my country have been viewing my blog. That makes me both extremely happy and extremely nervous. It makes me nervous because... what if they're people I know in real life? THEY CAN'T SEE THIS BLOG. But then happy, because it may well not be people I actually know. It might be people from my country who actually have the same interests as me, and that's awesome, because such people are few and far between. I would love to meet more Japan/visual kei fans who live in New Zealand!
NP - Guillotine by BugLug
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Mustache Cash Stash~!
Ooohhhhhhhh!
I love Regular Show. Not as much as Adventure Time. But it's still pretty fanfuckingtastic. Oh, Rigby just nipple pinched Mordecai. You know, if Mordecai actually had nipples, but he doesn't, because he's a bird.
You know what I really hate? Doing puzzles. That shit is stupid. Especially 1000 piece puzzles. NEVER AGAIN. I will not waste any more minutes of my life on puzzles. I know that you're supposed to feel a little challenged and then feel really pleased with yourself once you complete it, but I just felt frustrated and then exhausted. That's about five hours of my life that I'll never get back, and for what? To see the end result for like, a minute or two and then have to take it all apart and put it back in the box because it's taking up too much space on the table? No thank you, sir.
One of the books that I got out the other day, Library Wars, was so good! I'm really looking forward to reading more. Admittedly, it is super typically shoujo. But hey, what am I supposed to do. I'm a real shoujo junkie, and honestly, I love it. Oh, the other two were also good though! I'm so curious to find out who Riika ends up with. I feel like it will be Soshi, but then again, I think that would be too predictable. So I go back and fourth like, Oh it's totally going to be Soshi, wait no way it has to be Night~ I actually can't pick my favourite pairing right now. I guess it would have to be Riika and Night... Maybe. Oh well, I'll find out soon! Bakuman was pretty good. I'll be honest, it seems like it's going to be a little slow moving. But that might be good for me! Hopefully I'll finally have found a series that doesn't make me want to scream and cry and rip my hair out then curl up and slowly rock in the corner of my room. I mean, I do like all the feels that I get, but sometimes I get waaaay too involved in the story. I guess what I'm getting at here is that it may be more light reading for me. The art is wonderful, as expected of Takeshi Obata, and the story is pretty cute. So I also look forward to reading more of that. In other manga news, six of my requested books arrived at the library today! But I didn't feel like doing my hair and makeup and putting on real clothes today. Pajama party, all day erryday! I'll get them tomorrow.
Because if my painfully slow internet, I've been writing this post over the course of about four days. Sometimes I just couldn't be bothered waiting ten minutes for this page to load. I probably shouldn't have stopped writing though, because I'm in a considerably different mood than the mood I was in four days ago. I don't really know how to explain it, I've never been good at explaining how I'm feeling. It's like, when you go to the doctor and they ask you what you came to see them about, and you just look at your mother like, you explain. Actually, I guess it's not like that at all. Damn it, I don't even know what I'm saying. Basically, I just have been feeling really lonely. I don't actually think that 'lonely' is exactly the word I'm looking for, but I'll use it for now due to lack of a better word. I always knew that I don't really have that many friends, both real life and internet wise, but today I realised that outside of my home, there is only one person who I feel I can truly be myself around without worrying that I'll be judged. She makes up one of the only three people that I feel this way about. The other two live in the same house os me. And what's worse, two of the three people are leaving at the end of this year. They're exchange students from Japan, so they'll be going back home for good in December. I really don't know what I'll do when that happens. Also, I already knew this before, but damn, people change. I know change is an inevitable part of life and it's going to happen whether I like it or not, but that doesn't make it any easier to accept. I don't deal with change very well, I guess... I really don't want to go back to school. I'm going to feel so isolated. There isn't a single person there who I feel I can trust enough to talk to them about anything and everything without being judged. I feel like I just have acquaintances. I wish I could make friends on the internet. You know, fellow fangirls and such. But I just don't know how. Maahhhhhhhhhh. I don't know. Hopefully I can sort out this feeling before Monday... or at least figure out how to be civil towards people without having to be social. I'm just sick of people right now.
In other news, I finally plucked up enough courage to get out a couple of yaoi manga from the library today! Eeeep, don't show my mother! She would have a heart attack if she saw what her sweet little daughter was reading... I got out two that I had already heard/seen a lot about, so it wouldn't be too shocking. I got The Tyrant Falls in Love by Hinako Takanaga, and Finder: Target in the Viewfinder by Ayano Yamane. Two series that I believe are quite popular (I could be wrong, I'm just a humble noob~!), and aren't too graphic but are still super sexy. I know, deep down in my soul I knew it all along, but reading them in actual book format just solidified the fact - I'm hooked. Addicted. It's all downhill from here. JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL. I still feel a little unsure about being a yaoi fan, but I figured there was no point in trying to lie to myself anymore. I do feel like I'm looking at forbidden materials, like it's some kind of sin to be into this stuff... but I can't help it! I'm going to to my best to keep it a secret from everyone. Except my homestay student. She came with me to the library today, and she knows that I like BL (even though she says she isn't a fan, she has read a few slightly BL manga...). She doesn't judge me for it, and I'm so grateful. Although, she doesn't seem to know what exactly yaoi is, strangely enough, she is Japanese. So I haven't explained in great detail. I gave her a VERY vague description, a I'll let her learn the rest herself. I didn't want to have to explain it to her fully, because even though she is few months older than me, she's so cute and innocent! I didn't want to soil her purity... Oh, that could sound weird. I mean, I didn't want to be the one to educate her about... well... gay sex. Oh god, even I feel uncomfortable writing that! I'm going to be the worst yaoi fan ever...
I swear, if anyone I know in real life EVER reads this... I'm going to dig myself a hole and die of embarrassment...
I've actually been reading a lot more manga, mostly shoujo. I really want to talk about them, but this post is long enough as it is. Shit, man, this is turning into some kind of manga blog. I just don't really have much else going on in my life to write about, so manga it is! God I'm lame...
NP - Rasen by Crazy★shampoo
I love Regular Show. Not as much as Adventure Time. But it's still pretty fanfuckingtastic. Oh, Rigby just nipple pinched Mordecai. You know, if Mordecai actually had nipples, but he doesn't, because he's a bird.
You know what I really hate? Doing puzzles. That shit is stupid. Especially 1000 piece puzzles. NEVER AGAIN. I will not waste any more minutes of my life on puzzles. I know that you're supposed to feel a little challenged and then feel really pleased with yourself once you complete it, but I just felt frustrated and then exhausted. That's about five hours of my life that I'll never get back, and for what? To see the end result for like, a minute or two and then have to take it all apart and put it back in the box because it's taking up too much space on the table? No thank you, sir.
One of the books that I got out the other day, Library Wars, was so good! I'm really looking forward to reading more. Admittedly, it is super typically shoujo. But hey, what am I supposed to do. I'm a real shoujo junkie, and honestly, I love it. Oh, the other two were also good though! I'm so curious to find out who Riika ends up with. I feel like it will be Soshi, but then again, I think that would be too predictable. So I go back and fourth like, Oh it's totally going to be Soshi, wait no way it has to be Night~ I actually can't pick my favourite pairing right now. I guess it would have to be Riika and Night... Maybe. Oh well, I'll find out soon! Bakuman was pretty good. I'll be honest, it seems like it's going to be a little slow moving. But that might be good for me! Hopefully I'll finally have found a series that doesn't make me want to scream and cry and rip my hair out then curl up and slowly rock in the corner of my room. I mean, I do like all the feels that I get, but sometimes I get waaaay too involved in the story. I guess what I'm getting at here is that it may be more light reading for me. The art is wonderful, as expected of Takeshi Obata, and the story is pretty cute. So I also look forward to reading more of that. In other manga news, six of my requested books arrived at the library today! But I didn't feel like doing my hair and makeup and putting on real clothes today. Pajama party, all day erryday! I'll get them tomorrow.
Because if my painfully slow internet, I've been writing this post over the course of about four days. Sometimes I just couldn't be bothered waiting ten minutes for this page to load. I probably shouldn't have stopped writing though, because I'm in a considerably different mood than the mood I was in four days ago. I don't really know how to explain it, I've never been good at explaining how I'm feeling. It's like, when you go to the doctor and they ask you what you came to see them about, and you just look at your mother like, you explain. Actually, I guess it's not like that at all. Damn it, I don't even know what I'm saying. Basically, I just have been feeling really lonely. I don't actually think that 'lonely' is exactly the word I'm looking for, but I'll use it for now due to lack of a better word. I always knew that I don't really have that many friends, both real life and internet wise, but today I realised that outside of my home, there is only one person who I feel I can truly be myself around without worrying that I'll be judged. She makes up one of the only three people that I feel this way about. The other two live in the same house os me. And what's worse, two of the three people are leaving at the end of this year. They're exchange students from Japan, so they'll be going back home for good in December. I really don't know what I'll do when that happens. Also, I already knew this before, but damn, people change. I know change is an inevitable part of life and it's going to happen whether I like it or not, but that doesn't make it any easier to accept. I don't deal with change very well, I guess... I really don't want to go back to school. I'm going to feel so isolated. There isn't a single person there who I feel I can trust enough to talk to them about anything and everything without being judged. I feel like I just have acquaintances. I wish I could make friends on the internet. You know, fellow fangirls and such. But I just don't know how. Maahhhhhhhhhh. I don't know. Hopefully I can sort out this feeling before Monday... or at least figure out how to be civil towards people without having to be social. I'm just sick of people right now.
In other news, I finally plucked up enough courage to get out a couple of yaoi manga from the library today! Eeeep, don't show my mother! She would have a heart attack if she saw what her sweet little daughter was reading... I got out two that I had already heard/seen a lot about, so it wouldn't be too shocking. I got The Tyrant Falls in Love by Hinako Takanaga, and Finder: Target in the Viewfinder by Ayano Yamane. Two series that I believe are quite popular (I could be wrong, I'm just a humble noob~!), and aren't too graphic but are still super sexy. I know, deep down in my soul I knew it all along, but reading them in actual book format just solidified the fact - I'm hooked. Addicted. It's all downhill from here. JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL. I still feel a little unsure about being a yaoi fan, but I figured there was no point in trying to lie to myself anymore. I do feel like I'm looking at forbidden materials, like it's some kind of sin to be into this stuff... but I can't help it! I'm going to to my best to keep it a secret from everyone. Except my homestay student. She came with me to the library today, and she knows that I like BL (even though she says she isn't a fan, she has read a few slightly BL manga...). She doesn't judge me for it, and I'm so grateful. Although, she doesn't seem to know what exactly yaoi is, strangely enough, she is Japanese. So I haven't explained in great detail. I gave her a VERY vague description, a I'll let her learn the rest herself. I didn't want to have to explain it to her fully, because even though she is few months older than me, she's so cute and innocent! I didn't want to soil her purity... Oh, that could sound weird. I mean, I didn't want to be the one to educate her about... well... gay sex. Oh god, even I feel uncomfortable writing that! I'm going to be the worst yaoi fan ever...
I swear, if anyone I know in real life EVER reads this... I'm going to dig myself a hole and die of embarrassment...
I've actually been reading a lot more manga, mostly shoujo. I really want to talk about them, but this post is long enough as it is. Shit, man, this is turning into some kind of manga blog. I just don't really have much else going on in my life to write about, so manga it is! God I'm lame...
NP - Rasen by Crazy★shampoo
Friday, July 6, 2012
Capped~!
My internet is freaking capped! Somehow we managed to use up 100% of our data block within three weeks. I don't know exactly how much we get each month, but it's a fair amount. So I really don't know how it's already been used up, with one week left before we get our monthly block. I haven't been doing any excessive downloading or anything. I downloaded a couple of singles here and there, but nothing too major... Oh. Wait. Shit. As I was writing that I remembered that I downloaded LM.C's Nippon Budokan... that must have taken up quite a bit of internet. Damn, whenever our internet caps early, it always seems to come down to me and my downloading. I'm actually surprised that my internet provider hasn't sent me warning letters about illegal downloading. That's how it is in my country. If you're caught downloading things illegally, they send you a warning letter. Then if you're caught again, you get another warning letter. If you're caught a third time then it's a $15,000 NZD fine. But so far, I haven't even gotten a warning. I guess it's because I don't download all the mainstream shit, music and movie wise. I think that's what they're looking out for. Ahh, I just reread that and it makes me sound really hipster! I don't mean it in that way! I just don't listen to you know, Lady Gaga and such, because, well... Yeah, I think western pop music is shit. Mehhh I wasn't planning on getting into a musical debate with myself here, and I know that's a poor explanation that would get me bricked, but I'm gonna leave it at that for now.
So far, none of the books that I requested from the library have arrived! I know it's only been two days, but they only have to transport the books from different places within the same city! But I was really hoping that at least a few of them would be ready for pick up today... that means I'm not going to be able to get them until Monday. Phooey. I went to the library today anyway, just to check out what manga they had. Usually my local library is pretty crap when it comes to the manga section (by section I mean one or two small shelves), but today I had some good finds! They had volume one of Bakuman, so I was particularly stoked about that! I've been wanting to read it for a long time now. I also picked up volume three of Absolute Boyfriend. Gahh, I know, I know. I'm such a girl... But I can't help it! Shoujo manga is so addictive! I was pleasantly surprised to find volume three, because that was the next one I had to read. Feels like fate, doesn't it? I also got out another Shojo Beat manga that I've never heard of called Library Wars. It doesn't sound like a typical shoujo story, so I'm looking forward to reading it. I've actually already read Bakuman and Absolute Boyfriend, so that one is next! I just realized that I've been talking about manga a lot lately... maybe too much. I'm sorry! ><
I feel like I'm just verbally spewing onto this blog. It doesn't seem to have much structure. I'm kind of just talking... I don't use the backspace key in my blogs unless I make a spelling or grammar mistake, or if I want to rearrange the order of a sentence. I rarely delete what I have written purely because I change my mind. Once it's down, it's down, no holding back. I like to think that it makes my blog more honest, but it probably just makes it really painful and dull to read. I'm rambling a lot today especially... again, I'm sorry! I'll try harder to give what I write more direction and fluidity!
Watching Naruto Shippuden reruns on Cartoon Network. I've lost count of how many times I've watched the first fourty or so episodes because Cartoon Network here is crap and that is all they have of the series right now. I have watched more online, but I'm still miles behind. I was planning on catching up in my break, but... capped internet is capped, remember? And also, I prefer to watch Naruto with English dub. Yes, shoot me now, I actually don't mind the English dub of something~ It seems like a crime to watch anime with English dub.... Anyway, that's how I started watching Naruto, it's how I've always watched it, and I probably will always watch it dubbed. I just can't get used to Japanese voices this late into it, you know? I'm so used to the characters voices, it feels weird to watch it in Japanese. That's just me, though.
See, more rambling! I need a filter or something... Ok, I'm done for today. Sorry for a boring post~
NP - Ryuusei lyrical by -the MelT-
So far, none of the books that I requested from the library have arrived! I know it's only been two days, but they only have to transport the books from different places within the same city! But I was really hoping that at least a few of them would be ready for pick up today... that means I'm not going to be able to get them until Monday. Phooey. I went to the library today anyway, just to check out what manga they had. Usually my local library is pretty crap when it comes to the manga section (by section I mean one or two small shelves), but today I had some good finds! They had volume one of Bakuman, so I was particularly stoked about that! I've been wanting to read it for a long time now. I also picked up volume three of Absolute Boyfriend. Gahh, I know, I know. I'm such a girl... But I can't help it! Shoujo manga is so addictive! I was pleasantly surprised to find volume three, because that was the next one I had to read. Feels like fate, doesn't it? I also got out another Shojo Beat manga that I've never heard of called Library Wars. It doesn't sound like a typical shoujo story, so I'm looking forward to reading it. I've actually already read Bakuman and Absolute Boyfriend, so that one is next! I just realized that I've been talking about manga a lot lately... maybe too much. I'm sorry! ><
I feel like I'm just verbally spewing onto this blog. It doesn't seem to have much structure. I'm kind of just talking... I don't use the backspace key in my blogs unless I make a spelling or grammar mistake, or if I want to rearrange the order of a sentence. I rarely delete what I have written purely because I change my mind. Once it's down, it's down, no holding back. I like to think that it makes my blog more honest, but it probably just makes it really painful and dull to read. I'm rambling a lot today especially... again, I'm sorry! I'll try harder to give what I write more direction and fluidity!
Watching Naruto Shippuden reruns on Cartoon Network. I've lost count of how many times I've watched the first fourty or so episodes because Cartoon Network here is crap and that is all they have of the series right now. I have watched more online, but I'm still miles behind. I was planning on catching up in my break, but... capped internet is capped, remember? And also, I prefer to watch Naruto with English dub. Yes, shoot me now, I actually don't mind the English dub of something~ It seems like a crime to watch anime with English dub.... Anyway, that's how I started watching Naruto, it's how I've always watched it, and I probably will always watch it dubbed. I just can't get used to Japanese voices this late into it, you know? I'm so used to the characters voices, it feels weird to watch it in Japanese. That's just me, though.
See, more rambling! I need a filter or something... Ok, I'm done for today. Sorry for a boring post~
NP - Ryuusei lyrical by -the MelT-
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Check Out My Steaz~
You know that drink brand, Steaz? Yeah, their raspberry sparkling green tea is like sunshine, lollipops and rainbows in my mouth. Aaaaand now I, and you reading this, have that song in your head! Sorry... At least now I don't have Lumpy Space Princess' song in my head. I've had the lines "These lumps, I know you want some~" in my head for about three days. Oh, but it's not so bad, because sometimes it alternates between that song, and Jake's tropical island song. Oh my glob, that has to be my favourite Adventure Time song. It's my ringtone. It's also my wake-up alarm. But seeing as I'm on break now, I don't get to hear it every morning. So I just play it at random throughout the day. I would talk about what I've done/am doing/will do for my break, but I legitimately haven't done/am not doing/will not do anything. For the past five days I've just been sitting on the sofa, playing Sims, watching Adventure Time and wasting away on the internet. My routine is as follows: Get up at 12pm, sit around in pajamas playing the Sims until 3pm, shower and change into clothes with the equivalent comfort of pajamas, watch Adventure Time (it's on every day at 3.30!), derp on the internet, play more Sims, watch Adventure Time again (it's also on at 7pm every day!), alternate between more internet and more Sims, and also watch whatever trash is on TV until about 3 or 4 am, then go to bed. I haven't watched any of the anime that I want to, or read any manga. I'm so disappointed in myself. I'm too lazy to be lazy! Okay, starting tomorrow, it will be a Naruto marathon! Fighting spirit hoyyyy!
Speaking of anime/manga, I just finished a huge request haul from my library. I'm seriously behind on my manga, so this is way overdue. I actually kind of want to slap myself, I should have requested all these books before the break started. Now I'm not going to get them until about halfway through my break. I'm still super excited, none-the-less. For the majority of them, I'm the only person who has requested them, so I should get them in a few days. Apart from Black Butler, of course, the one I'm most eager to read. Right now I'm at 22 out of 33 holds. I decided I'd also request the next volume too, so I don't have to wait quite as long. Status for that volume is at 60 out of 61. Jesus christ. Just in case you want to know what I'm reading at the moment, here's the list of what I have on requested:
Haruka: Beyond The Stream of Time vol. 10
Nosatsu Junkie vol. 5
The Devil Does Exist vol. 8
Lovely Complex (Love Com) vol. 8
Land of the Blindfolded vol. 9
Hana-Kimi vol. 7
Gakuen Alice vol. 11
B.O.D.Y. vol. 4
Cardcaptor Sakura vol. 5
Naruto vol. 7
Loveless vol. 9
Black Butler vol. 9 + 10
I'm actually reading more series than this, these are just the chosen ones for this haul~ I'm a little worried, though, because it's been a little while since I read these the last volumes of these series, I'm not 100% of which volume I have to read next... I thought I had already read Gakuen Alice 11, but the synopsis didn't sound familiar. And Hana-Kimi, I feel like I've read more than just six volumes of it... Oh well, we'll see how it goes! Oh, also, the other one that I am really desperate to read, Loveless 9, is going to take longer because the library doesn't actually have any copies yet. They have ordered some, and so far only two other people have requested it, so I'll definitely be getting a first copy! Yay! That means I get the smell of new book! That sounds weird... But everyone loves the smell of a new book, right?
Oh, just while I'm here, I'll REALLY quickly talk again about Paradeis' disbandment news. So you know how I said that it hadn't really hit me that day, when I read the news, and I just felt shocked? Well, that afternoon, it hit me like a tidal wave. I was just starting to sort out my room and do some cleaning in there, so I turned my iPod onto shuffle, and about three songs in, LoLli★Lollipop, the first Paradeis song I heard, started playing. Let me just say, I ugly sobbed for a good while. Not a lot of cleaning got done that afternoon. I'm glad that there wasn't really anyone at home, phew. I was sad for the rest of the day, but I eventually got around to cleaning my room that evening. I actually threw myself into tidying as a distraction, and ended up listening to some bands that I'm really starting to love. Like Royz. I know, I'm a little behind on them, but they're really good! Also the LEM, Rivet, 2nd Dyz, FUTURISM・BOYZ, and Crazy shampoo. I already liked these bands, but I'd never really given them a proper listen until now. I know, I'm Captain Slow, but better late than never, right?
Ok, this post was a bit of a mixture. I'm tired. Doing nothing all day is hard work.
Maybe I should go to sleep earlier today.... Pfffffft.
NP - ONE story by 2nd Dyz
Speaking of anime/manga, I just finished a huge request haul from my library. I'm seriously behind on my manga, so this is way overdue. I actually kind of want to slap myself, I should have requested all these books before the break started. Now I'm not going to get them until about halfway through my break. I'm still super excited, none-the-less. For the majority of them, I'm the only person who has requested them, so I should get them in a few days. Apart from Black Butler, of course, the one I'm most eager to read. Right now I'm at 22 out of 33 holds. I decided I'd also request the next volume too, so I don't have to wait quite as long. Status for that volume is at 60 out of 61. Jesus christ. Just in case you want to know what I'm reading at the moment, here's the list of what I have on requested:
Haruka: Beyond The Stream of Time vol. 10
Nosatsu Junkie vol. 5
The Devil Does Exist vol. 8
Lovely Complex (Love Com) vol. 8
Land of the Blindfolded vol. 9
Hana-Kimi vol. 7
Gakuen Alice vol. 11
B.O.D.Y. vol. 4
Cardcaptor Sakura vol. 5
Naruto vol. 7
Loveless vol. 9
Black Butler vol. 9 + 10
I'm actually reading more series than this, these are just the chosen ones for this haul~ I'm a little worried, though, because it's been a little while since I read these the last volumes of these series, I'm not 100% of which volume I have to read next... I thought I had already read Gakuen Alice 11, but the synopsis didn't sound familiar. And Hana-Kimi, I feel like I've read more than just six volumes of it... Oh well, we'll see how it goes! Oh, also, the other one that I am really desperate to read, Loveless 9, is going to take longer because the library doesn't actually have any copies yet. They have ordered some, and so far only two other people have requested it, so I'll definitely be getting a first copy! Yay! That means I get the smell of new book! That sounds weird... But everyone loves the smell of a new book, right?
Oh, just while I'm here, I'll REALLY quickly talk again about Paradeis' disbandment news. So you know how I said that it hadn't really hit me that day, when I read the news, and I just felt shocked? Well, that afternoon, it hit me like a tidal wave. I was just starting to sort out my room and do some cleaning in there, so I turned my iPod onto shuffle, and about three songs in, LoLli★Lollipop, the first Paradeis song I heard, started playing. Let me just say, I ugly sobbed for a good while. Not a lot of cleaning got done that afternoon. I'm glad that there wasn't really anyone at home, phew. I was sad for the rest of the day, but I eventually got around to cleaning my room that evening. I actually threw myself into tidying as a distraction, and ended up listening to some bands that I'm really starting to love. Like Royz. I know, I'm a little behind on them, but they're really good! Also the LEM, Rivet, 2nd Dyz, FUTURISM・BOYZ, and Crazy shampoo. I already liked these bands, but I'd never really given them a proper listen until now. I know, I'm Captain Slow, but better late than never, right?
Ok, this post was a bit of a mixture. I'm tired. Doing nothing all day is hard work.
Maybe I should go to sleep earlier today.... Pfffffft.
NP - ONE story by 2nd Dyz
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