The Romance Is Dead~

Hey whaddup~
So this post is a little overdue. By what, like a month? Sorry about that, but then again it shouldn't come as a surprise. We all know how horrible I am at this blogging thing. Anyway I think this post is going to be a little random. I don't want it to end up too long, but then I'm awful at being brief so it'll probably end up as one big ramble.

Actually, this first thing I want to talk about I do want to keep brief. Because I don't really know how to explain it, even to myself. As you may have guessed from the title, I just want to mention the breakup of one of the most influential bands in my life - My Chemical Romance. Wow, was that announcement sudden or what? Well, that's what I'd like to think. But when I really think about it, I feel like I kind of saw it coming a little while ago. It sounds like they did too. But they pushed on for the sake of the fans. Which is both admirable and annoying. Basically, I first heard MCR nine years ago, and I loved them instantly. They were my favourite band for a long time, and even when I was trying out new things and trying to find out who I was, they were always there, even if it was just in the background. Admittedly, I haven't really been keeping up with them as much in the last couple of years (i.e. the years that I've been into visual kei), but that doesn't mean I loved them any less. They have been there for me through countless occasions, and I'll always be grateful to them for that. I honestly think that without them I wouldn't be the me I am right now. I probably wouldn't have found visual kei. I know that the two aren't really linked, but just trust me on that one. So naturally when I saw the news pop up on Twitter late Saturday night, I was stunned. Shocked. I sort of just sat there for a couple of minutes with my mouth wide open. I felt sadness, yes. But strangely, I was able to accept it. In my heart and my head, I was okay with it. At first I didn't know why. I always thought I would be distraught by this kind of announcement, but I was okay. Well, regardless of how I felt and feel about it, they produced some really, really amazing music in their twelve years together. Those twelve years must have gone by so quickly. It was an abrupt ending that must have left so many fans feeling hurt and betrayed. But I think we, as the fans, have to understand their position in all this. I think reading Gerard's post on Twitter is a good start to achieving that understanding. I was speechless when I read it. It's not only a bloody brilliant piece of writing, it provides this amazingly comforting form of closure on the whole matter. I think rather than trying to explain it myself, and not do it any justice, it would be better if you read it for yourself. All I knew was that I agreed with him completely. And honestly, now is probably a good time for this to happen. Twelve years and four albums is a lot. It was a good, no, an AMAZING run for them, but nothing lasts forever. If they had kept going, there's a chance that they would lose their heart for it all, lose their soul. The music may have ended up being all the same. The band and the fans would get tired of it. It's better to go out with a bang on a positive note, don't you think? Well, this is just my feeling. And I really don't know what else to say about it. I could probably go on forever, but I don't want to. All that's really left to say is thank you. Thank you to My Chemical Romance and everyone who was ever a part of it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you have done for me and countless others. This may be the end, but it's not goodbye.

It actually took me a little while to understand why exactly I was so okay with all of this. I was sitting in bed, still sort of shocked by the news. I looked around my room, at the posters on my wall and the CDs on my shelves. I looked at my laptop screen, which was paused on the Kiseki no Tsubasa PV off-shot DVD that came with FEST VAINQUEUR's GENERATION. And it hit me. I was okay, because of visual kei. No rhyme intended. I know that sounds cheesy as hell, but it's just how it is. Visual kei is my security, my safety blanket. Rather than just cushioning the blow, it lifted me completely. Of course, that's not to say that MCR can be so easily replaced, because they can't. But for the past two years, visual kei has held it's own, stood next to MCR. And now in my heart it's shining brighter than before.

Okay okay, sorry about all that. I just really needed to get that off my chest. I feel good now. Actually, I feel really good, because I just got an email from CDJapan telling me that my copy of ACE's Shiroi Akuma has been shipped! Oh, that reminds me! I was gonna post about some music in my next blog! Well, technically this has been a music post but ok.

BURU2 (finally!) and Called≠Plan L and R! I got the singles a week or so after their release. I didn't care though, all I knew was that I had to get my hands on them. They'd been building up to these for a while, so I knew they would be something special. And they are. Also, I was really hoping that I would get one Yuuto card and one Minoru card. And guess what. That's exactly what I got! I actually flipped my shit. And maybe cried a little. Shhh~

Kameleo's Sandwich LOVE and Royz's Tears! I love Kameleo so much, they're such a great bunch of guys. Royz too, they've really come a long way huh! I got Takeshi for the Kameleo artist photo (HELL YES~) and Tomoya and Kazuki trading cards with Tears! So I was pretty stoked with that. Oh, also, how good is the Koi Hanabi remake?! I was so worried that they would totally butcher one of my favorite songs of theirs, but it's so damn awesome I shouldn't have worried! Sometimes bands can totally kill their good songs by remaking them -cough-SuG's Vi-Vi-Vi remake-cough-

And these are my most recent additions to the family. GOTCHAROCKA's Poisonous berry and SuG Best 2010~2012. Damn... GR are so amazing. They never, ever disappoint  Poisonous berry is just... ugh fantastic. And the PV is nothing to complain about either ;D As for SuG's best, well... I just felt like I had to have it. For sentimental reasons, you know? With the hiatus and all. 

As I said, I'm getting ACE's new single soon, hopefully within the next week. I really can't wait, it sounds like such a beautiful song. As all their songs are~

Ah, what else... I haven't really been out much lately. So just have some random pictures.

Idk. This outfit was kind of weird. But I liked it. So whatever.

I don't remember what we did this day. Derpderp.

This outfit was kind of boring, but it was waaaay too hot to bother with anything else. 

And that's all. Sorry this post is so fucking random and long. Maybe next time I'll have more structure LOL WHAT NO WAY. Oh, actually, I ordered a wig from Gothic Lolita Wigs, so I guess I'll post about that once it gets here! I'm so excited omfg. Ok. I'm really done now. See ya~

(I've never been good at selfies ok shut up)

Now Playing - Poisonous berry by GOTCHAROCKA

Check Out My Steaz~

You know that drink brand, Steaz? Yeah, their raspberry sparkling green tea is like sunshine, lollipops and rainbows in my mouth. Aaaaand now I, and you reading this, have that song in your head! Sorry... At least now I don't have Lumpy Space Princess' song in my head. I've had the lines "These lumps, I know you want some~" in my head for about three days. Oh, but it's not so bad, because sometimes it alternates between that song, and Jake's tropical island song. Oh my glob, that has to be my favourite Adventure Time song. It's my ringtone. It's also my wake-up alarm. But seeing as I'm on break now, I don't get to hear it every morning. So I just play it at random throughout the day. I would talk about what I've done/am doing/will do for my break, but I legitimately haven't done/am not doing/will not do anything. For the past five days I've just been sitting on the sofa, playing Sims, watching Adventure Time and wasting away on the internet. My routine is as follows: Get up at 12pm, sit around in pajamas playing the Sims until 3pm, shower and change into clothes with the equivalent comfort of pajamas, watch Adventure Time (it's on every day at 3.30!), derp on the internet, play more Sims, watch Adventure Time again (it's also on at 7pm every day!), alternate between more internet and more Sims, and also watch whatever trash is on TV until about 3 or 4 am, then go to bed. I haven't watched any of the anime that I want to, or read any manga. I'm so disappointed in myself. I'm too lazy to be lazy! Okay, starting tomorrow, it will be a Naruto marathon! Fighting spirit hoyyyy!

Speaking of anime/manga, I just finished a huge request haul from my library. I'm seriously behind on my manga, so this is way overdue. I actually kind of want to slap myself, I should have requested all these books before the break started. Now I'm not going to get them until about halfway through my break. I'm still super excited, none-the-less. For the majority of them, I'm the only person who has requested them, so I should get them in a few days. Apart from Black Butler, of course, the one I'm most eager to read. Right now I'm at 22 out of 33 holds. I decided I'd also request the next volume too, so I don't have to wait quite as long. Status for that volume is at 60 out of 61. Jesus christ. Just in case you want to know what I'm reading at the moment, here's the list of what I have on requested:
Haruka: Beyond The Stream of Time vol. 10
Nosatsu Junkie vol. 5
The Devil Does Exist vol. 8
Lovely Complex (Love Com) vol. 8
Land of the Blindfolded vol. 9
Hana-Kimi vol. 7
Gakuen Alice vol. 11
B.O.D.Y. vol. 4
Cardcaptor Sakura vol. 5
Naruto vol. 7
Loveless vol. 9
Black Butler vol. 9 + 10

I'm actually reading more series than this, these are just the chosen ones for this haul~ I'm a little worried, though, because it's been a little while since I read these the last volumes of these series, I'm not 100% of which volume I have to read next... I thought I had already read Gakuen Alice 11, but the synopsis didn't sound familiar. And Hana-Kimi, I feel like I've read more than just six volumes of it... Oh well, we'll see how it goes! Oh, also, the other one that I am really desperate to read, Loveless 9, is going to take longer because the library doesn't actually have any copies yet. They have ordered some, and so far only two other people have requested it, so I'll definitely be getting a first copy! Yay! That means I get the smell of new book! That sounds weird... But everyone loves the smell of a new book, right?

Oh, just while I'm here, I'll REALLY quickly talk again about Paradeis' disbandment news. So you know how I said that it hadn't really hit me that day, when I read the news, and I just felt shocked? Well, that afternoon, it hit me like a tidal wave. I was just starting to sort out my room and do some cleaning in there, so I turned my iPod onto shuffle, and about three songs in, LoLli★Lollipop, the first Paradeis song I heard, started playing. Let me just say, I ugly sobbed for a good while. Not a lot of cleaning got done that afternoon. I'm glad that there wasn't really anyone at home, phew. I was sad for the rest of the day, but I eventually got around to cleaning my room that evening. I actually threw myself into tidying as a distraction, and ended up listening to some bands that I'm really starting to love. Like Royz. I know, I'm a little behind on them, but they're really good! Also the LEM, Rivet, 2nd Dyz, FUTURISM・BOYZ, and Crazy shampoo. I already liked these bands, but I'd never really given them a proper listen until now. I know, I'm Captain Slow, but better late than never, right?


Ok, this post was a bit of a mixture. I'm tired. Doing nothing all day is hard work. 
Maybe I should go to sleep earlier today.... Pfffffft.


NP - ONE story by 2nd Dyz