The Romance Is Dead~

Hey whaddup~
So this post is a little overdue. By what, like a month? Sorry about that, but then again it shouldn't come as a surprise. We all know how horrible I am at this blogging thing. Anyway I think this post is going to be a little random. I don't want it to end up too long, but then I'm awful at being brief so it'll probably end up as one big ramble.

Actually, this first thing I want to talk about I do want to keep brief. Because I don't really know how to explain it, even to myself. As you may have guessed from the title, I just want to mention the breakup of one of the most influential bands in my life - My Chemical Romance. Wow, was that announcement sudden or what? Well, that's what I'd like to think. But when I really think about it, I feel like I kind of saw it coming a little while ago. It sounds like they did too. But they pushed on for the sake of the fans. Which is both admirable and annoying. Basically, I first heard MCR nine years ago, and I loved them instantly. They were my favourite band for a long time, and even when I was trying out new things and trying to find out who I was, they were always there, even if it was just in the background. Admittedly, I haven't really been keeping up with them as much in the last couple of years (i.e. the years that I've been into visual kei), but that doesn't mean I loved them any less. They have been there for me through countless occasions, and I'll always be grateful to them for that. I honestly think that without them I wouldn't be the me I am right now. I probably wouldn't have found visual kei. I know that the two aren't really linked, but just trust me on that one. So naturally when I saw the news pop up on Twitter late Saturday night, I was stunned. Shocked. I sort of just sat there for a couple of minutes with my mouth wide open. I felt sadness, yes. But strangely, I was able to accept it. In my heart and my head, I was okay with it. At first I didn't know why. I always thought I would be distraught by this kind of announcement, but I was okay. Well, regardless of how I felt and feel about it, they produced some really, really amazing music in their twelve years together. Those twelve years must have gone by so quickly. It was an abrupt ending that must have left so many fans feeling hurt and betrayed. But I think we, as the fans, have to understand their position in all this. I think reading Gerard's post on Twitter is a good start to achieving that understanding. I was speechless when I read it. It's not only a bloody brilliant piece of writing, it provides this amazingly comforting form of closure on the whole matter. I think rather than trying to explain it myself, and not do it any justice, it would be better if you read it for yourself. All I knew was that I agreed with him completely. And honestly, now is probably a good time for this to happen. Twelve years and four albums is a lot. It was a good, no, an AMAZING run for them, but nothing lasts forever. If they had kept going, there's a chance that they would lose their heart for it all, lose their soul. The music may have ended up being all the same. The band and the fans would get tired of it. It's better to go out with a bang on a positive note, don't you think? Well, this is just my feeling. And I really don't know what else to say about it. I could probably go on forever, but I don't want to. All that's really left to say is thank you. Thank you to My Chemical Romance and everyone who was ever a part of it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you have done for me and countless others. This may be the end, but it's not goodbye.

It actually took me a little while to understand why exactly I was so okay with all of this. I was sitting in bed, still sort of shocked by the news. I looked around my room, at the posters on my wall and the CDs on my shelves. I looked at my laptop screen, which was paused on the Kiseki no Tsubasa PV off-shot DVD that came with FEST VAINQUEUR's GENERATION. And it hit me. I was okay, because of visual kei. No rhyme intended. I know that sounds cheesy as hell, but it's just how it is. Visual kei is my security, my safety blanket. Rather than just cushioning the blow, it lifted me completely. Of course, that's not to say that MCR can be so easily replaced, because they can't. But for the past two years, visual kei has held it's own, stood next to MCR. And now in my heart it's shining brighter than before.

Okay okay, sorry about all that. I just really needed to get that off my chest. I feel good now. Actually, I feel really good, because I just got an email from CDJapan telling me that my copy of ACE's Shiroi Akuma has been shipped! Oh, that reminds me! I was gonna post about some music in my next blog! Well, technically this has been a music post but ok.

BURU2 (finally!) and Called≠Plan L and R! I got the singles a week or so after their release. I didn't care though, all I knew was that I had to get my hands on them. They'd been building up to these for a while, so I knew they would be something special. And they are. Also, I was really hoping that I would get one Yuuto card and one Minoru card. And guess what. That's exactly what I got! I actually flipped my shit. And maybe cried a little. Shhh~

Kameleo's Sandwich LOVE and Royz's Tears! I love Kameleo so much, they're such a great bunch of guys. Royz too, they've really come a long way huh! I got Takeshi for the Kameleo artist photo (HELL YES~) and Tomoya and Kazuki trading cards with Tears! So I was pretty stoked with that. Oh, also, how good is the Koi Hanabi remake?! I was so worried that they would totally butcher one of my favorite songs of theirs, but it's so damn awesome I shouldn't have worried! Sometimes bands can totally kill their good songs by remaking them -cough-SuG's Vi-Vi-Vi remake-cough-

And these are my most recent additions to the family. GOTCHAROCKA's Poisonous berry and SuG Best 2010~2012. Damn... GR are so amazing. They never, ever disappoint  Poisonous berry is just... ugh fantastic. And the PV is nothing to complain about either ;D As for SuG's best, well... I just felt like I had to have it. For sentimental reasons, you know? With the hiatus and all. 

As I said, I'm getting ACE's new single soon, hopefully within the next week. I really can't wait, it sounds like such a beautiful song. As all their songs are~

Ah, what else... I haven't really been out much lately. So just have some random pictures.

Idk. This outfit was kind of weird. But I liked it. So whatever.

I don't remember what we did this day. Derpderp.

This outfit was kind of boring, but it was waaaay too hot to bother with anything else. 

And that's all. Sorry this post is so fucking random and long. Maybe next time I'll have more structure LOL WHAT NO WAY. Oh, actually, I ordered a wig from Gothic Lolita Wigs, so I guess I'll post about that once it gets here! I'm so excited omfg. Ok. I'm really done now. See ya~

(I've never been good at selfies ok shut up)

Now Playing - Poisonous berry by GOTCHAROCKA

Dream Breaker~

Uh, last minute title is last minute. I hate having to put titles, but I hate not having one. Sigh. I've been listening to GOTCHAROCKA a lot lately. They're just so good buhuhu~

Anyway, it's been a while! A lot has happened since I posted last! Sort of... In comparison to what usually goes on in my life, it feels like a lot has happened. But then it probably isn't all that much. It certainly won't be very exciting. Sorry. I never got round to posting photos of stuff that happened last year, and now I can't really remember anything about it anyway. So I'll try and incorporate some photos into this post, because I take photos of pretty much anything and everything that happens to me. So yeah. I feel like this is gonna be a long post lol sorry not sorry.

Actually, it's not even January anymore. I've forgotten what happened in January too... Useless! The only thing I can remember, and the only thing with any importance, is that I FINALLY got a job. It's only one day a week at the moment but they said that they will be offering me more hours in the near future. So yeah, I'm super stoked about it! It's kinda freaky, cause it's my first job and it's in customer service, but I'm getting there! I'm trying really hard, because I want to keep this job. I like it, and I like the people. Please don't fire me~ I know I'm super awkward and a bit slow right now but I'll keep trying!

Ahh, so other than that all that happened in January was pretty much just getting new clothes and going out places and eating good food. I haven't had any new music this year, but I ordered some from CDJapan yesterday, so looking forward to that. I guess I'll just fill the rest of this post with photos of random junk yeah? Ah, just so you know, there are gonna be some crappily edited photos of people here, because I don't want to show their faces without their permission. Sorry not sorry. Stop saying that.

This actually happened in December. We went to the zoo. 'We' was actually a lot of people, too many people for me to be bothered explaining. But there's me looking mega-derp.

This also happened in December. Idk what we did that day. But have a photo of it anyway. Wahh I miss her~ ; 3 ;

I made my second order from Rakuten in early January. The seller shipped internationally, so I didn't need a shopping service. I love World Wide Love, but to buy new is so expensive These were both second hand, and the prices were really good. About $30 NZD each. Plus they're in great condition! I love them~

This was also early January I think... I was feeling super tired and lazy one day, so I went out without wearing my wig or any makeup. I was just going out to lunch with my mum, but I felt so weird... I like this outfit though. I gotta wear it again, but with the rest.

We went to the city. I finally wore my WWL top, and it was awesome. It's so oversized I love it.

Actually, that was the day that I found a legit Candy Stripper shirt in this random Asian clothes store~ Of course, I bought it. 

Then I got my new babies. Unfortunately, I only got to wear them for one day, and had to send them back, because they were already falling apart after a few hours of wear! CDJapan was super cool about it though, and my replacement pair will be shipped to me soon. Love CDJapan <3 p="">

Went to the city again (I did that a lot last month)

Yes, we always take photos in bathroom mirrors. 

Have a derp face. You love it. 

This is the Candy Stripper shirt that I found! It has a cat on it mudafuckas. It's the best shirt ever and it's mine sorry not sorry. And my shoes. I want my new ones to get here soon because they are so beautiful crycry.

Got new Listen Flavor stuff too, cause it was on sale lol forever cheap. I haven't had the chance to wear the purple one yet because it's been soooo hot here, but I forced myself to wear the other one the day I got it.

City. Again. I wore my newish Yaponskii skirt! The picture is crap so you can't see it in all it's awesome. I also got this skirt second hand, from Closet Child. It was also only about $30 NZD. At that price, I HAD to buy it. Considering I wanted it when it was newly released but it was like 10,000+ yen omfg. 

And yeah, that's the same mirror. We always go here ok. It's cool. It's like a mall, but not many people know about it, and it's just full of Chinese/Korean/Japanese clothes/shoes/makeup/random stores. There's this really amazing Japanese makeup shop there that have an amazing wall of fake eyelashes and I die every time I go in there. 

Oh! This was also the day that we went to this thing about Japanese characters that was organized by the university or something. I wasn't expecting much though, and I was right. It was pretty much just a bunch of Hello Kitty. There were some pretty interesting characters too, but overall it was pretty limited. They had some anime characters and figures and stuff, but again it wasn't anything special. They tried!

This guy was cool though. I admit I had never seen/heard of him before. I can't actually remember what he is either my bad.

Idk why these guys were on the wall, but I'm not complaining. School guys so coooool~

This dude was creepy as shit though.

Sort of big Gundam. Or something. Idk I don't watch mecha anime ok.

They broke the exhibit down into decades. It started at 1950's or 60's I think. 

Dis old guy so cute with his chara mug~

And then a couple of days ago I went out with a different (lol my only other) friend, and we actually went somewhere other than the city. She's so pretty and cute and stuff and she makes me feel like a giant tard. But I lover her anyway. 

Wow sorry that was a lot. Actually, I have a lot more photos, but I'm so lazyyyyy. Plus I think there's already too many... Other than this, I've just been watching a lot of Adventure Time and Regular Show. I'm 100% up to date with them, too. Achievement unlocked! Also played lot's of Sims 3, because I finally got some more expansions. Supernatural, Generations and Showtime. I still need Seasons though. I'm not really fussed about the Stuff ones... Can't wait for University though! Gonna be great. I requested a tonne of manga from the library, so once they all get here I'm gonna go turbo-nerd. Yeah, I got some yaoi too hohoho don't judge me. Oh yeah, and I've been working. That's pretty much it. 

Right now, I'm trying to decide if I should spend almost $100 on a wig. And honestly, I'm leaning towards HELL YES. It's beautiful. My white one is really crappy, so it's starting to fall apart.

Oh, and I said, I ordered some music and stuff yesterday! Buuuut I'll talk about that next time. Actually, maybe I'll make my next post entirely about music, old and new. Yay!

Ehhh it looks like another badly written post. I guess I'll never get better. Whatever. 

Now Playing - Samurai dreeeeeam breaker by GOTCHAROCKA

Something... Different~?

Yep, I decided I wanted to start a new post just to talk about my new layout! Whoooo!
I'm actually really excited about it. I don't even know why!

I know, it's nothing really special. Even so, I feel like it's much more me. I've always been more inclined to simple things, when it comes to design. The old template I used was simple, yes, but I feel that it was too dark, too claustrophobic. Can a blog be claustrophobic? I particularly didn't like the width of the actual post - it was way too narrow, and made it look really cramped. Anyway, I like how light and plain this new layout is. I always like to use white as a background colour, for everything. I really like light purple, and light grey, so that explains the colour combination. I personally think they go really nicely together, but that could just be me... I also love the title font! It's so cute and childish. Like me! The childish part, anyway. Definitely not the cute part. Maybe one day I'll get around to making my own header or something, but for now, I really like the way it is. Seeing as I was actually able to figure out how to do it, and edit it to make it my own, I feel quite pleased with it. It's plain, simple, average, but a with a tiny splash of individuality. I feel it suits me just fine.

So that's all. I'll be writing again in the next couple of days, back to my normal routine. Sorry for the random, waste of time and effort post~! ^^;;

NP - Sumire September Love by Megamasso ft. Izam