Thursday, July 12, 2012

Mustache Cash Stash~!

Ooohhhhhhhh!
I love Regular Show. Not as much as Adventure Time. But it's still pretty fanfuckingtastic. Oh, Rigby just nipple pinched Mordecai. You know, if Mordecai actually had nipples, but he doesn't, because he's a bird.

You know what I really hate? Doing puzzles. That shit is stupid. Especially 1000 piece puzzles. NEVER AGAIN. I will not waste any more minutes of my life on puzzles. I know that you're supposed to feel a little challenged and then feel really pleased with yourself once you complete it, but I just felt frustrated and then exhausted. That's about five hours of my life that I'll never get back, and for what? To see the end result for like, a minute or two and then have to take it all apart and put it back in the box because it's taking up too much space on the table? No thank you, sir.

One of the books that I got out the other day, Library Wars, was so good! I'm really looking forward to reading more. Admittedly, it is super typically shoujo. But hey, what am I supposed to do. I'm a real shoujo junkie, and honestly, I love it. Oh, the other two were also good though! I'm so curious to find out who Riika ends up with. I feel like it will be Soshi, but then again, I think that would be too predictable. So I go back and fourth like, Oh it's totally going to be Soshi, wait no way it has to be Night~ I actually can't pick my favourite pairing right now. I guess it would have to be Riika and Night... Maybe. Oh well, I'll find out soon! Bakuman was pretty good. I'll be honest, it seems like it's going to be a little slow moving. But that might be good for me! Hopefully I'll finally have found a series that doesn't make me want to scream and cry and rip my hair out then curl up and slowly rock in the corner of my room. I mean, I do like all the feels that I get, but sometimes I get waaaay too involved in the story. I guess what I'm getting at here is that it may be more light reading for me. The art is wonderful, as expected of Takeshi Obata, and the story is pretty cute. So I also look forward to reading more of that. In other manga news, six of my requested books arrived at the library today! But I didn't feel like doing my hair and makeup and putting on real clothes today. Pajama party, all day erryday! I'll get them tomorrow.

Because if my painfully slow internet, I've been writing this post over the course of about four days. Sometimes I just couldn't be bothered waiting ten minutes for this page to load. I probably shouldn't have stopped writing though, because I'm in a considerably different mood than the mood I was in four days ago. I don't really know how to explain it, I've never been good at explaining how I'm feeling. It's like, when you go to the doctor and they ask you what you came to see them about, and you just look at your mother like, you explain. Actually, I guess it's not like that at all. Damn it, I don't even know what I'm saying. Basically, I just have been feeling really lonely. I don't actually think that 'lonely' is exactly the word I'm looking for, but I'll use it for now due to lack of a better word. I always knew that I don't really have that many friends, both real life and internet wise, but today I realised that outside of my home, there is only one person who I feel I can truly be myself around without worrying that I'll be judged. She makes up one of the only three people that I feel this way about. The other two live in the same house os me. And what's worse, two of the three people are leaving at the end of this year. They're exchange students from Japan, so they'll be going back home for good in December. I really don't know what I'll do when that happens. Also, I already knew this before, but damn, people change. I know change is an inevitable part of life and it's going to happen whether I like it or not, but that doesn't make it any easier to accept. I don't deal with change very well, I guess... I really don't want to go back to school. I'm going to feel so isolated. There isn't a single person there who I feel I can trust enough to talk to them about anything and everything without being judged. I feel like I just have acquaintances. I wish I could make friends on the internet. You know, fellow fangirls and such. But I just don't know how. Maahhhhhhhhhh. I don't know. Hopefully I can sort out this feeling before Monday... or at least figure out how to be civil towards people without having to be social. I'm just sick of people right now.

In other news, I finally plucked up enough courage to get out a couple of yaoi manga from the library today! Eeeep, don't show my mother! She would have a heart attack if she saw what her sweet little daughter was reading... I got out two that I had already heard/seen a lot about, so it wouldn't be too shocking. I got The Tyrant Falls in Love by Hinako Takanaga, and Finder: Target in the Viewfinder by Ayano Yamane. Two series that I believe are quite popular (I could be wrong, I'm just a humble noob~!), and aren't too graphic but are still super sexy. I know, deep down in my soul I knew it all along, but reading them in actual book format just solidified the fact - I'm hooked. Addicted. It's all downhill from here. JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL. I still feel a little unsure about being a yaoi fan, but I figured there was no point in trying to lie to myself anymore. I do feel like I'm looking at forbidden materials, like it's some kind of sin to be into this stuff... but I can't help it! I'm going to to my best to keep it a secret from everyone. Except my homestay student. She came with me to the library today, and she knows that I like BL (even though she says she isn't a fan, she has read a few slightly BL manga...). She doesn't judge me for it, and I'm so grateful. Although, she doesn't seem to know what exactly yaoi is, strangely enough, she is Japanese. So I haven't explained in great detail. I gave her a VERY vague description, a I'll let her learn the rest herself. I didn't want to have to explain it to her fully, because even though she is few months older than me, she's so cute and innocent! I didn't want to soil her purity... Oh, that could sound weird. I mean, I didn't want to be the one to educate her about... well... gay sex. Oh god, even I feel uncomfortable writing that! I'm going to be the worst yaoi fan ever...

I swear, if anyone I know in real life EVER reads this... I'm going to dig myself a hole and die of embarrassment...

I've actually been reading a lot more manga, mostly shoujo. I really want to talk about them, but this post is long enough as it is. Shit, man, this is turning into some kind of manga blog. I just don't really have much else going on in my life to write about, so manga it is! God I'm lame...

NP - Rasen by Crazy★shampoo

Friday, July 6, 2012

Capped~!

My internet is freaking capped! Somehow we managed to use up 100% of our data block within three weeks. I don't know exactly how much we get each month, but it's a fair amount. So I really don't know how it's already been used up, with one week left before we get our monthly block. I haven't been doing any excessive downloading or anything. I downloaded a couple of singles here and there, but nothing too major... Oh. Wait. Shit. As I was writing that I remembered that I downloaded LM.C's Nippon Budokan... that must have taken up quite a bit of internet. Damn, whenever our internet caps early, it always seems to come down to me and my downloading. I'm actually surprised that my internet provider hasn't sent me warning letters about illegal downloading. That's how it is in my country. If you're caught downloading things illegally, they send you a warning letter. Then if you're caught again, you get another warning letter. If you're caught a third time then it's a $15,000 NZD fine. But so far, I haven't even gotten a warning. I guess it's because I don't download all the mainstream shit, music and movie wise. I think that's what they're looking out for. Ahh, I just reread that and it makes me sound really hipster! I don't mean it in that way! I just don't listen to you know, Lady Gaga and such, because, well... Yeah, I think western pop music is shit. Mehhh I wasn't planning on getting into a musical debate with myself here, and I know that's a poor explanation that would get me bricked, but I'm gonna leave it at that for now.

So far, none of the books that I requested from the library have arrived! I know it's only been two days, but they only have to transport the books from different places within the same city! But I was really hoping that at least a few of them would be ready for pick up today... that means I'm not going to be able to get them until Monday. Phooey. I went to the library today anyway, just to check out what manga they had. Usually my local library is pretty crap when it comes to the manga section (by section I mean one or two small shelves), but today I had some good finds! They had volume one of Bakuman, so I was particularly stoked about that! I've been wanting to read it for a long time now. I also picked up volume three of Absolute Boyfriend. Gahh, I know, I know. I'm such a girl... But I can't help it! Shoujo manga is so addictive! I was pleasantly surprised to find volume three, because that was the next one I had to read. Feels like fate, doesn't it? I also got out another Shojo Beat manga that I've never heard of called Library Wars. It doesn't sound like a typical shoujo story, so I'm looking forward to reading it. I've actually already read Bakuman and Absolute Boyfriend, so that one is next! I just realized that I've been talking about manga a lot lately... maybe too much. I'm sorry! ><

I feel like I'm just verbally spewing onto this blog. It doesn't seem to have much structure. I'm kind of just talking... I don't use the backspace key in my blogs unless I make a spelling or grammar mistake, or if I want to rearrange the order of a sentence. I rarely delete what I have written purely because I change my mind. Once it's down, it's down, no holding back. I like to think that it makes my blog more honest, but it probably just makes it really painful and dull to read. I'm rambling a lot today especially... again, I'm sorry! I'll try harder to give what I write more direction and fluidity!

Watching Naruto Shippuden reruns on Cartoon Network. I've lost count of how many times I've watched the first fourty or so episodes because Cartoon Network here is crap and that is all they have of the series right now. I have watched more online, but I'm still miles behind. I was planning on catching up in my break, but... capped internet is capped, remember? And also, I prefer to watch Naruto with English dub. Yes, shoot me now, I actually don't mind the English dub of something~ It seems like a crime to watch anime with English dub.... Anyway, that's how I started watching Naruto, it's how I've always watched it, and I probably will always watch it dubbed. I just can't get used to Japanese voices this late into it, you know? I'm so used to the characters voices, it feels weird to watch it in Japanese. That's just me, though.

See, more rambling! I need a filter or something... Ok, I'm done for today. Sorry for a boring post~

NP - Ryuusei lyrical by -the MelT-

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Check Out My Steaz~

You know that drink brand, Steaz? Yeah, their raspberry sparkling green tea is like sunshine, lollipops and rainbows in my mouth. Aaaaand now I, and you reading this, have that song in your head! Sorry... At least now I don't have Lumpy Space Princess' song in my head. I've had the lines "These lumps, I know you want some~" in my head for about three days. Oh, but it's not so bad, because sometimes it alternates between that song, and Jake's tropical island song. Oh my glob, that has to be my favourite Adventure Time song. It's my ringtone. It's also my wake-up alarm. But seeing as I'm on break now, I don't get to hear it every morning. So I just play it at random throughout the day. I would talk about what I've done/am doing/will do for my break, but I legitimately haven't done/am not doing/will not do anything. For the past five days I've just been sitting on the sofa, playing Sims, watching Adventure Time and wasting away on the internet. My routine is as follows: Get up at 12pm, sit around in pajamas playing the Sims until 3pm, shower and change into clothes with the equivalent comfort of pajamas, watch Adventure Time (it's on every day at 3.30!), derp on the internet, play more Sims, watch Adventure Time again (it's also on at 7pm every day!), alternate between more internet and more Sims, and also watch whatever trash is on TV until about 3 or 4 am, then go to bed. I haven't watched any of the anime that I want to, or read any manga. I'm so disappointed in myself. I'm too lazy to be lazy! Okay, starting tomorrow, it will be a Naruto marathon! Fighting spirit hoyyyy!

Speaking of anime/manga, I just finished a huge request haul from my library. I'm seriously behind on my manga, so this is way overdue. I actually kind of want to slap myself, I should have requested all these books before the break started. Now I'm not going to get them until about halfway through my break. I'm still super excited, none-the-less. For the majority of them, I'm the only person who has requested them, so I should get them in a few days. Apart from Black Butler, of course, the one I'm most eager to read. Right now I'm at 22 out of 33 holds. I decided I'd also request the next volume too, so I don't have to wait quite as long. Status for that volume is at 60 out of 61. Jesus christ. Just in case you want to know what I'm reading at the moment, here's the list of what I have on requested:
Haruka: Beyond The Stream of Time vol. 10
Nosatsu Junkie vol. 5
The Devil Does Exist vol. 8
Lovely Complex (Love Com) vol. 8
Land of the Blindfolded vol. 9
Hana-Kimi vol. 7
Gakuen Alice vol. 11
B.O.D.Y. vol. 4
Cardcaptor Sakura vol. 5
Naruto vol. 7
Loveless vol. 9
Black Butler vol. 9 + 10

I'm actually reading more series than this, these are just the chosen ones for this haul~ I'm a little worried, though, because it's been a little while since I read these the last volumes of these series, I'm not 100% of which volume I have to read next... I thought I had already read Gakuen Alice 11, but the synopsis didn't sound familiar. And Hana-Kimi, I feel like I've read more than just six volumes of it... Oh well, we'll see how it goes! Oh, also, the other one that I am really desperate to read, Loveless 9, is going to take longer because the library doesn't actually have any copies yet. They have ordered some, and so far only two other people have requested it, so I'll definitely be getting a first copy! Yay! That means I get the smell of new book! That sounds weird... But everyone loves the smell of a new book, right?

Oh, just while I'm here, I'll REALLY quickly talk again about Paradeis' disbandment news. So you know how I said that it hadn't really hit me that day, when I read the news, and I just felt shocked? Well, that afternoon, it hit me like a tidal wave. I was just starting to sort out my room and do some cleaning in there, so I turned my iPod onto shuffle, and about three songs in, LoLliLollipop, the first Paradeis song I heard, started playing. Let me just say, I ugly sobbed for a good while. Not a lot of cleaning got done that afternoon. I'm glad that there wasn't really anyone at home, phew. I was sad for the rest of the day, but I eventually got around to cleaning my room that evening. I actually threw myself into tidying as a distraction, and ended up listening to some bands that I'm really starting to love. Like Royz. I know, I'm a little behind on them, but they're really good! Also the LEM, Rivet, 2nd Dyz, FUTURISMBOYZ, and Crazy shampoo. I already liked these bands, but I'd never really given them a proper listen until now. I know, I'm Captain Slow, but better late than never, right?


Ok, this post was a bit of a mixture. I'm tired. Doing nothing all day is hard work. 
Maybe I should go to sleep earlier today.... Pfffffft.


NP - ONE story by 2nd Dyz

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Y U NO MOVE?

I'm trying to convert a video on iTunes so that I can actually put it on to my iPod, but it's been about ten minutes and the bar hasn't moved a bit! I guess the video is quite long though.... I'll give it an hour to convert, and if it hasn't finished/even moved by then, then I'm gonna flip some coffee mugs.
*EDIT* So it finished. I had to leave it to load over-night though. It wasn't even half way done after about three hours. But it was so worth it! The video was LM.C's Nippon Budokan, the whole thing. Some lovely person uploaded the files. I am eternally grateful! I was watching it all day during school. Because who actually does work on the last day of term. And I almost fangirl cried so many times. I had to hold it in as best I could, because I was around people, but my feels man. All the feels. It made me want to buy the DVD even more! I definitely will, when I can afford to. It was beautiful.

So I'm thinking about scanning my Fresh Fruits book and uploading the photos. I'd only put them on my Pinterest. Yeah, I talk about Pinterest a lot... I think it's great! But I don't have a Tumblr. I don't really see the need for one to be honest, it'd just be another place where nobody cares... At least on Pinterest, I have people following my various boards, and people who are interested in the things I pin. Whoa, kind of a tangent there. Ok, so anyway, about the Fresh Fruits photos. I know there are probably already some out there, but I was thinking I'd scan the whole book, and possibly put it on the internet as a file for people to download. I got the idea when I found and downloaded the complete scans of Buru (Takeru of SuGs personal KERA book). I have since gotten a physical copy of the book, my lovely homestay student bought it for me for my birthday! But being able to look through it before I decided to go and spent money on it was really good. I just feel a little conflicted about doing it. On the one hand, there's the feeling that I'll get to share Shoichi Aoki's (and my) passion and all his wonderful findings with the netizens. But then on the other hand, I feel like it would be disrespectful to him if I just shared his hard work for free. I don't know, but either way I couldn't do it right now anyway. My scanner sucks balls, I'd need to find time to go to my dad's office or something. But it's something to think about doing... Awkward though, if someone has already done it.... Hurr durr.

WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO HARD TO FIND A GACHAPIN KIGURUMI? I mean really, there's a fucking surplus of Pikachu kigurumi. So why does the one that I am absolutely in love with have to be so difficult? I was going to buy one from Akinai Store, but by the time I had saved up they had sold out. I was heart shattered man. Now I can't find anywhere that sells one. All the crycry. ;___;

Well. I'm out. Going to go do more nothing. Maybe I'll see what late-night trash TV shows are on... WHOA NOT LIKE PORN KK. I meant like, Jersey Shore or something. I swear, MTV has that shit on all day erry day. It's seriously so entertaining though... Please don't brick me.

NP - XEPPET by vistlip

Monday, June 25, 2012

I Forgot How To Breathe~

No, really. I'm not being stupid and soppy and teenagerish. I actually have a breathing pattern disorder. It's called hyperventilation syndrome. Mine isn't quite as bad as it sounds. I don't do the hyperventilating, but that's because my case is only mild at the moment. I'm a chronic mouth breather, so that causes me to yawn and sigh all the time, and often feel like I'm hungry and gasping for air. I've just recently started seeing a specialist, so hopefully I will re-learn how to nose breathe. It feels really unnatural and uncomfortable at the moment, but apparently it can take two to three months to be comfortable with nose breathing again. But I'd rather spend three months trying to fix it than live with the feeling that I'm gonna die if I don't get enough air. I know I won't, but that's just how it feels, so I always find my self trying to breathe in through my mouth as deeply as possible. Not how you're supposed to do it. Also, this disorder isn't weird, it's actually pretty common, and can happen to people of any age. If you think you're having issues with breathing, get it checked out sooner rather than later mmkay~?

On Saturday I went to see a one hour screening of Adventure Time at the cinema! It cost $10, and we were SUPPOSED to get free Finn hats, but the dumbass organizers didn't order enough hats, so only the people under ten years old got one. Me and my friends, and numerous other viewers, were like, bitch please. There were only about ten kids under 10. The rest were teenagers, my age. Because let's be honest, Adventure Time is way more suited towards teenagers, or at least people over the age of ten. So we were all pretty mad about that (and we wrote some strongly worded complaints to the movie theatre when we got home), but seeing Adventure Time on a big screen was actually pretty awesome. I love Adventure Time, so I was just really happy and excited, and it was a fun experience. I wouldn't do it again for $10 though... maybe for $5.

So I've recently found some online stores that sell fake nails that I really love. I'm thinking about buying some soon, because I still have birthday money from my relatives. I think I'm going to buy a Tamiya t-shirt first though, the tell-tale sign of a Golden Bomber fan~ Could also be two-tone hair, face paint and Gachapin and Mukku things. XD

Threeeee moreeeee daaaaaays! And then a two week break. I know it doesn't sound like much, but still. I don't have to deal with people I don't like everyday. I can stay in my pajamas all day. I can catch up on some anime, and read the pile of manga I have waiting for me beside my bed. Which, in case you are curious, includes Fairy Cube, Loveless, Ouran High School Host Club, Shugo Chara!, Sand Chronicles, and others. I've already read all of Ouran, but it is my second favourite series ever, so I'm re-reading it for the millionth time. I actually only own four physical copies of it though. Slowly collecting them! It's such a wonderful series, so balanced and lovely. Tamaki is of course my favourite, but Hikaru is very, VERY close. I'm going to admit this now, I was never as drawn to Kyoya as many people seem to be. Mori was my favourite for a chapter or two. And for my first watching of the anime (yes, I watched the anime first), I adored Honey. But I've actually come to really dislike Honey. I can't be bothered explaining it much further than that right now, though. I've also read Shugo Chara! before, it's also a favourite, but I'm yet to watch the anime. I actually think I've written about Shugo Chara! in this blog before... Hey, maybe I'll spend my break watching the anime! As for Loveless, I'm actually up to volume 9, but I haven't been able to find it anywhere, so I'm re-reading what I've read so far. I'll probably watch the anime for that in the break too. But I really want to read on! It's so good where I've come to a stop, and the suspense is killing me! Must find! I don't really like reading manga online, I prefer to hold the actual book in my hand. Of course, I have to read a lot online, but I always check the library first. It's usually pretty good, my library.

Speaking of the library, I've requested Black Butler volume 9, but at the moment I'm number 28 on the hold list. I'm not going to get it for at least a month. Gahh, so much suspense~ =_=

Damn, now I'm in one of those moods where I really want to talk about anime and manga! But I don't have time right now. I know, I'm nowhere near close to an expert, and I guess in comparison to some others I don't read/watch that many series, but I still love it and love to talk about it none-the-less. Maybe one day I'll do a post purely dedicated to my anime and manga!

Wow, long post today. Cool beans. :3

NP - Pandora by Mix Speaker's,Inc.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Pin All The Things!

I'm almost done with a mad spam of pins on Pinterest. I hadn't really pinned anything in a while, and I lost a lot of followers for some of my boards! One of my boards used to have 100+ followers, now it's down to about 40~ So sad! If I ever see pictures and things that I like when I'm derping around on the internet, that I think could be pin-worthy, I save them into a folder. That folder had gotten pretty full, so I decided to clean it up a bit! If you're interested in checking out mah thangs, here's the link - http://pinterest.com/wonderholic/
It's mostly just fangirling, but I do pin clothes and stuff that I like, and sometimes just random images that bring me giggles. Feel free to browse and enjoy~

The other day, a package arrived for me. I wasn't expecting it to arrive so soon, so I was stoked! It was my albums, Tales for the Abyss from ACE, and 2PIKO from Piko! Both came with posters! Eeeeeeep! I'm so happy, both albums are fantastic! I particularly recommend Tales for the Abyss. Liek srsly. I probably won't bother doing one of my crappy reviews on it, mostly because I honestly can't find the words to describe it, but also because I am a lazy fuck. All I can say is that it is really, really amazing, and highly worth giving it a good listen. The best listening conditions would be when you're alone, or in a quiet space, and with enough time to listen to it solidly right the way through with no interruptions. I'd highly recommend that you listen to it at least once this way. It gives the best flow/feeling of the album, and then after you can go through and listen to your favourites. As for my favourites, Night of the Knights for sure, but also Abyss (Piano Version) is really stunningly beautiful, Shangri-La is super fun, and Haiiro no Tenshi and NU WORLD are great too. But really, I'm pretty much equal with my feelings on the songs, I think they're all incredible. ACE are such a unique and creative group of guys. They're the kind of guys that I'd just really want to sit down and talk to for hours and hang out with. Please do check them out!


So I've had this blog for two years now, and I am yet to figure out how to put photos or images or videos in my posts. It doesn't help that I'm already technologically impaired and I can't figure out any internet shit to begin with. I really don't understand coding, HTML or any of that. How is it that I'm taking a web design class at school lol? Damn. I'll need to try and find a simple English explanation for how to do it. Laaaaaaa.

I have school tomorrow, so I gotta get ready for sleeeeeeeep. I also need to decide what to wear tomorrow! The weather here is being really whack. It's not particularly cold, it is a little cold, but not hugely. But it's super fucking windy! And it's going to be heavy rain tomorrow! So it'll be humid. Humidity kills straightened hair! I always straighten my hair, otherwise it looks weird as hell. So tomorrow is not going to be a fun day. Oh well, only 8 more days before our two week break. Keep pushing through!

NP -  Yoake no Anthem by ACE


Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Miracle Growth~

For the past four months I've been desperately trying to grow out my hair. Unfortunately, it isn't really progressing very much. I blame it on how much I dye my hair, even though I don't often dye it outrageous colours. I wish I could do unnatural colours more often, but my school is balls and won't let me. So it's mostly just red/brown/purple-ish sorts of colours. At the end of last year I did bleach my hair and dye it bright purple though, but because my hair colour was so dark prior to that, I had to bleach it about three times. I also did a sort of two-tone with my hair a couple of months ago, so I bleached half of my hair. That one didn't go as light blonde as I wanted, as the purple I used had stained my hair sort of pink, so it was more like a peach colour on one side and black on the other. Anyway, I think this is what is stopping my hair from growing very much; it's all dead. It sucks, cause before I started dying my hair, my hair always grew really quickly, but now it just doesn't. And I don't want to get the dead ends cut off, because hairdressers don't understand the term 'trim'. NEVER EVER EVER ask a hairdresser for a trim. They'll cut half your fucking hair off. I've been to countless hairdressers in my life, and am yet to find one who understands what I mean by trim. My hair is all black now, but my roots are coming through, and my fringe is getting lighter, so I really want to dye it again. Maybe purple-black or blue-black. We'll see.

"Cucumbers are fuzzy." I was going to make this the title of this post, but out of fear of immediate misconception, I decided against it. I still think it's fairly amusing though, considering I was actually talking about kiwifruit...

I was thinking about what to write for this post. I had ideas coming and going. Then I saw a comment about Kanon Wakeshima, so I decided I'd share my thoughts on her. Let me just say this straight up. I absolutely, completely and utterly adore her. She has the voice of an angel and her skills as a cellist are freaking boss. Plus, she's beautiful, has adorable lolita fashion, and she is an amazing artist. I'll admit it without hesitation, as a straight girl, she's totally my ladycrush. Kyary Pamyu Pamyu can also fall into this category, though... Anyway. So what this is all about, is the difference between her two albums, and I 'll apologise in advance because we all know that I suck at explaining music. My review of SuG's Lollipop Kingdom will tell you that much. So, again, just to make things clear from the beginning, my favourite album of hers is Shinshoku Dolce, but this feeling is definitely NOT influenced by the fact that Mana was the producer. I started listen to Kanon before I even knew Mana had been her producer, and I listened to both albums at the same time, so for me that bias didn't exist (not that I actually would be biased, I'm only a fan of Mana for his amazing fashion //brickedbyfangirls). But people saying that her second album was a 'train wreck' and that without Mana she has nothing, makes me kind of annoyed. Just because it has a different sound and style, doesn't automatically make it crap. It makes her a diverse musician, someone with the capability to learn and grow, to experiment with change, which is an admirable quality. Also, without Mana, she still has her beautiful voice, and she still has her twenty-odd years of cello training. I don't know about you, but I certainly wouldn't call that nothing. Yes, maybe she isn't as good or experienced at composing songs as Mana, but she has only been alive for about half the time that he has, and in the music business for much, much less. She's young, yes, but she will learn, and I believe she has already learnt a lot. I think Lolitawork Libretto is a fantastic album, and shows off her skills in all aspects. My favourite on the album is Celmisia, which is an absolutely breathtaking song. I may be wrong, but my personal thought on Lolitawork Libretto is that, this is the kind of music that Kanon herself wants to make. With Mana as her producer, there would have been pressure to fit with his style. Please don't misunderstand, I'm not saying that Mana is some kind of tyrant who forced her to do it, because if she didn't want to make music like that then she clearly wouldn't have. I just believe that with Mana, that was the look and sound that they were going for. But with Lolitawork, where it's mostly self composed, I think Kanon had the freedom to experiment and try new sounds. It's an expression of her solo identity. It's her. But like I said at the beginning, Shinshoku Dolce is my favourite album. I think Kanon can pull of both styles beautifully, and she can do it with or without Mana.

And as for KanonxKanon, well, I hate to say it but that's where my love for her goes on hiatus. KanonxKanon, IN MY OWN PERSONAL OPINION, WHICH I AM, AS A HUMAN BEING, ALLOWED TO HAVE, has ruined her, musically and otherwise. It in no way showcases her amazing talent, the music is average at best, and I eagerly await the day when that project is put aside and she goes back to being a solo artist. //endrant

Wow, that ended up being way longer than I intended. And I didn't even provide a very strong arguement. Oh well, I got my thoughts down, that's all that matters. It's a good thing nobody reads my blog anyway, otherwise I may get attacked by some vicious Mana/An Cafe fans. Eeep.

NP - Skip Turn Step by Kanon Wakeshima (Fitting, no? xD)